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2014.05.18 18:22 legthief Honest Dating - Skip the uncertainty and bullshit, go straight to never being alone again.

**EVERYONE HERE IS UGLY** Post here to meet poor, confused cowards like yourself, in your area, who wish to skip the horrible mess of uncertainty and crossed wires which is dating and just skip straight to meaningful relationships kept afloat by tact, consideration, humility and honesty. To use Honest Dating YOU MUST CREATE A PROFILE THREAD, by clicking on **'CREATE YOUR PROFILE'**, but not before carefully reading the rules. *They will keep you safe and keep you honest.*
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2020.10.29 03:17 Xisas 30 [M4F] Nebraska/Midwest - Halp, don't want to be forever alone send GF

Here is my slightly updated copy pasta that I have posted before, still hoping to find someone! 🙏
I feel like online dating is the definition of insanity but here I am yet again trying to find someone or something. If the following sounds like a perfect day then we may be a perfect match!
We have the day to ourselves. There is a light thunderstorm outside. We crack the windows so we can hear the rain and thunder along with the fresh scent of rain flowing into our abode. We decide to cuddle up on the couch and cover ourselves with a fluffy blanket. In front of us is a TV which sits upon an entertainment center containing a (most likely) fake fireplace, but that doesn't bother us. Our dog decides to join us to keep us company as we snuggle and play video games or even watch a new movie or show, or perhaps we revisit one of our favorites. Both of us feeling as happy as we can be look at each other and say "there is no place I'd rather be than here with you" as we go in for a kiss our dog excitedly decides to jump on us and slobber us with kisses. We both laugh and start playing with our favorite doggo. Content and exhausted we curl up together and take an afternoon nap and dream of each others smiling faces.
Ahhh one can dream right? Here is a bit about me:
I'm a fairly nerdy guy... ok very nerdy guy! I love video games, anime, movies and music. Some games I'm currently playing are WoW (shadowlands waiting room), Ghost of Tsushima, Avengers. For anime I can get into just about anything but tend to go to shonen such as Naruto, DBZ, bleach and MHA. Movie wise I'm a HUGE star wars fan (mando season 2 hype!), marvel, harry potter (I'm gryffindor hbu?) and lord of the rings. Music is just all over the place, lots of rock, metal, occasional rap and hip hop. Lets see... personality wise I'm very sarcastic! I consider myself very kind, trusting, loyal, honest and a good listener. I have lots of love and support to give! I'm also 5'10''. I'm a very shy and quiet guy who is socially awkward BUT I do come out of my shell once I'm comfortable so give me time! Love dogs and the occasional cat. Traveling is fun and I would love to do more of it someday (damn covid).
Phew ok I'll end this here so I don't reveal all of my awesome sauce 😂 here are some pictures of myself. If you decide to contact me I'd appreciate a picture back! I prefer to know who I'm talking to!
https://imgur.com/a/g19HVQV
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2020.10.29 03:17 Xisas 30 [M4F] Nebraska/Midwest - Halp, don't want to be forever alone send GF

Here is my slightly updated copy pasta that I have posted before, still hoping to find someone! 🙏
I feel like online dating is the definition of insanity but here I am yet again trying to find someone or something. If the following sounds like a perfect day then we may be a perfect match!
We have the day to ourselves. There is a light thunderstorm outside. We crack the windows so we can hear the rain and thunder along with the fresh scent of rain flowing into our abode. We decide to cuddle up on the couch and cover ourselves with a fluffy blanket. In front of us is a TV which sits upon an entertainment center containing a (most likely) fake fireplace, but that doesn't bother us. Our dog decides to join us to keep us company as we snuggle and play video games or even watch a new movie or show, or perhaps we revisit one of our favorites. Both of us feeling as happy as we can be look at each other and say "there is no place I'd rather be than here with you" as we go in for a kiss our dog excitedly decides to jump on us and slobber us with kisses. We both laugh and start playing with our favorite doggo. Content and exhausted we curl up together and take an afternoon nap and dream of each others smiling faces.
Ahhh one can dream right? Here is a bit about me:
I'm a fairly nerdy guy... ok very nerdy guy! I love video games, anime, movies and music. Some games I'm currently playing are WoW (shadowlands waiting room), Ghost of Tsushima, Avengers. For anime I can get into just about anything but tend to go to shonen such as Naruto, DBZ, bleach and MHA. Movie wise I'm a HUGE star wars fan (mando season 2 hype!), marvel, harry potter (I'm gryffindor hbu?) and lord of the rings. Music is just all over the place, lots of rock, metal, occasional rap and hip hop. Lets see... personality wise I'm very sarcastic! I consider myself very kind, trusting, loyal, honest and a good listener. I have lots of love and support to give! I'm also 5'10''. I'm a very shy and quiet guy who is socially awkward BUT I do come out of my shell once I'm comfortable so give me time! Love dogs and the occasional cat. Traveling is fun and I would love to do more of it someday (damn covid).
Phew ok I'll end this here so I don't reveal all of my awesome sauce 😂 here are some pictures of myself. If you decide to contact me I'd appreciate a picture back! I prefer to know who I'm talking to!
https://imgur.com/a/g19HVQV
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2020.10.29 03:16 lwoneii About the Chinese antis

I hope this post will not get removed. There has been a few posts like this but I feel they are not explaning enoguh. I am writing this for western hololive fans specifically because it is important for YOU to know what had happened. I will try to keep this concise, comprehensive, and neutral.
Preface From what I read, most people on reddit and twitter believe Chinese anti were triggered because Coco brought up YouTube analytics, which contained Taiwan in the list of 「上位の国」which translates to top countries.
But this is an oversimplification of what had happened. If you care about hololive and want to do the right things. It is necessary to know the entirety of the story.
The History
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nGOeVBfad1c&t=12s Hololive really has not been a big deal in the Vtuber world until mid-2019.
Youtube was dominated by Nijisanji and several big names, in order survive the competition hololive partnered with bilibili in early 2019 and gained massive success in China.
I saw some people on reddit and twitter claiming Chinese only made up of 3% of hololive’s income. While it is true Chinese wasn’t giving comparable amount of Superchats, that is due to the fact Chinese are banned from accessing youtube and can only superchat to lives hosted on bilibili, which is a far less frequent thing. Those who do have access to Youtube are immigrants like me or international students (superchat in CAD or USD or JPY). But China does have a massive paid membership base, which was important for Cover Corp. to amass early capital to recruit subsequent 3rd gen and 4th gen members.
On January 17th, Minato Aqua gained 100k sub on the first week since her debut, at the time she only had 30k sub on youtube.
On February 4th, Hololive members showed up during the 2019 Bilibili Spring Festival Saga.
On November 21st, Hololive members appeared as in game-characters in mobile game Azur Lane, which was massively popular in Japan. Azur Lane was developed by biligame which is owned by bilibili. It was speculated Cover Corp. gained half a million USD from this collaboration.
In fact, until 2020, almost all hololive members had more subscribers on bilibili than on youtube

The Rabbit Hole
https://www.bilibili.com/video/BV1WJ411x7pq?from=search&seid=7714455772175469772
Many people now regard HLM as a toxic joke, but the truth is Hololive moment was the one who opened up the English Speaking fanbase. The term rabbit hole refers to a meme video about pekora made in bilibili, which was then translated and posted on youtube by HLM. Even the hololive was created by Chinese Fans in the first place.
Without the effort of HLM and Chinese fans making these memes, hololive would be just like another nijisanji, which westerners are largely ignorant of even to this date.
Before you attack Chinese fanbase on bilibili and HLM, do keep in mind about these.
The Red Line
Growing up in Canada, I believe nationalism is an outdated ideology that goes against the mainstream. I personally even support Taiwanese to decide their own fate with a referendum rather than being forced to recognize an untrustworthy sovereign (look what happen in HK recently). But I also think hololive members have an international audience comprised of a significant percentage of Chinese (and Taiwanese) and they need to respect them. Chinese are not crazy or evil, but they are different.
Japanese have absurd rules that dictate idols should not have hetero-sexual relationship, due to this reason two hololive members were forced to graduate. Are Japanese crazy? A Lecturer at Yale was forced to resign due to a “racist” Halloween costume, are Americans crazy?
Hololive could have not entered China and no Chinese would care what they say about Taiwan. (In fact, after Coco’s incident, a few Nijisanji members were discovered to have disclosed similar Youtube analytics containing Taiwan in the past, but no one in China gave a damn because they don’t have businesses in China)
However, Hololive entered China for good (see above), and if hololive wants to keep making money in China, they need to get their asses together and be respectful not to create discomfort to those specific audiences. This is not about freedom of speech, its about the code of business.
Even reddit would understand this, right?
“I Wasn’t Intentional”
One thing I heard a lot since Coco’s incident was that she was not intentional. In fact, during her comeback live I even heard from herself saying “I was not intentional” and said she was surprised on her video got banned.
https://youtu.be/nKEo1ivjPBo?t=919
I shall just share this video from Coco herself on September 20th, 4 days before the incident, and you can do the judging by yourself. Watch section from 15:19 till 20:40, English caption is available (auto translated by youtube)
One other thing I hear is Coco mentioned Taiwan on Youtube, thus Chinese fans should not be able to see. But all hololive streams are mirrored on bilibili as part of the contract, and Coco also knows asacoco would be visible to Chinese audience.
One day before the asacoco incident, Akai Haato was banned on bilibili due to showing Taiwan and referring Taiwan as a country. Most Chinese treated this as a unintentional action. But just one day after this, Kiryu Coco posted the exact same thing. Following this some Chinese anti started attacking Coco, but by this point attackers were mostly degenerates who hate anime in general (they are present in every culture). Unfortunately, Coco did not respond positively to her “unintentional” action and continued to stream on youtube. Instead of making an apology, during her stream on September 25th, Coco deleted Chinese comments, promoted, and read Taiwanese comments and superchats that contained damaging words to China. Comment section was filled with controversial topics involving Taiwan, Hong Kong, Sinkiang and even Tibet. This finally made Chinese fans upset. (The stream was deleted from both youtube and bilibili). Still, her fans and staff from bilibili was trying to amend the situation by trying to reach her on twitter but were blocked.
Coco never sincerely apologized to the Chinese, she only wrote an apology on twitter after Cover dictated so, and said she was ignorant in the video after her comeback live (but did not say sorry).
Personally, I understand Coco’s position and respect her freedom of political opinion. But as I mentioned above, Hololive has been in China for good, if Coco have these ideas that does not get along with Chinese, why would she join hololive in the first place, why not joining nijisanji?
In fact, up till Octorber 19 her comeback, Chinese fanbase were still concentrating fire against Coco alone, but Coco received commendation and support from most hololive members following her comeback, and also said “fuxk you and never come back” to Chinese anti, these resulted in the collapse of hololive fanbase in China in its entirety. If Coco cares about her fellow livers, why would she want to divert fire from her to the entire company?
The Aftermath
After reading all of this, I assume you would say “nobody gives a damn about China” and “good riddance exiting bilibili”. But the impact could be far more significant than it seems. Because hololive handled the situation badly and have antagonized the Chinese fanbase, it becomes apparent no Chinese company would ever dare to collab with hololive.
Genshin Impact, a game I assume many of you might heard of, has flagged and censored Kiryu Coco’s name as early as in late September. And the company has made sure to prevent hololive members from streaming its game entirely. Many other Chinese based game companies have followed suit, including Yostar and HyperGryph. Other game companies who want to keep their Chinese users happy would do the same even if they themselves are not Chinese. That TO SOME EXTENT explains why nijisanji livers are streaming a variety of games while hololive members are mostly doing Minecraft.
No hololive members are likely to gain any income from China in the future, all potential collaboration with Chinese companies (also those that have a large market in China) would now gone.
Kiryu Coco received the least damage from China due to her western oriented fanbase. Grantly, Coco got banned for 3 weeks but received much support and is now a hero the stand up against the Chinese anti. As if Chinese has been a source of evil and hurts vtubers.
One hololive member got invited to joint host LoL S10 match this October and prepared 2 songs for the event (both are available on bilibili, one is available on youtube). Due to the incident, all of preparations were scrapped. LoL was her favorite game, and it was her dream to participate in the event. Her Chinese fans, including HololiveCN are terribly upset about this, and are rallying under her banner. And to be clear, they are upset about Kiryu Coco, not Chinese anti, because they believe it was Coco’s action that caused all these, not the anti’s.
Up until October 25 I was still reluctant on posting all this stuff on reddit, partially also due to the karma requirement so I have to ask for my friend’s account. Ultimately, I am a Canadian (Chinese immigrant) who mostly watch natori sana and omesis. But I have seen the situation only going downhill, and the image of China has become extremely negative among the western vtuber fans, I need to say something as a Chinese descendent. Twitter is a shit hole, no effective argument could ever be made, I hope more can be done on reddit.
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2020.10.29 03:13 Lmaofucktony Key information from the CDPR conference call regarding further Cyberpunk delays

On discussion of cash flow, CDPR said this:
There will be a couple of sources of cash inflowing into the company. First, instalments due to us upon the release of the game. The release will still occur this year, so such instalments should land in our bank accounts before the end of December.
Why is this crucial? well at the moment we know the game isn't going to release when planned, but this shows us that they are due payment on release of the game and they have planned to have this cashflow this year. That means that even if there are future delays, we should still see a release within the year, and not in 2021.
They then go on to say this:
Yes the time for the game to exist on the market this year will be shortened by 3 weeks, but we also performed an analysis of sales of The Witcher 3 post-release, and this exercise revealed to us that the vast majority of sales, approximately 90%, happened within the first four weeks following the release, the vast majority of the sales for TW3 in the quarter of release. All key events and circumstances stimulating sales will still occur this year – I’m referring to the release of the game and also the pre-holiday season which should also support sales.
This means that the company is banking on receiving the bulk of the funds from basic sales this year. Again, proof that they do not plan to extend that deadline over to next year.
However, it is still possible there MAY be further delays past the December date. When asked directly this is what they said:
Q10: Okay, so – basically – we can be comfortable now that the game is definitely coming out on December 10, is that what you’re saying?
MN: That’s more or less what I’m saying, I guess – yes.
Obviously at this point they are not confident - and therefore we can't be either. However, based on the transcripts it would seem that their intent is still to release in 2020, and they don't have plans to release in 2021. The cost of pushing the release date to later in 2020 is low, but the cost to push to 2021 would be much higher, due to the above mentioned points.
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2020.10.29 03:07 Gigabars [PC][2003-2009] Old 3D pokemon fan game.

Platform(s):PC only. i remember it wasnt an offically lisensed pokemon game, it was a fan game.
Genre:Pokemon, so an RPG style game.
Estimated year of release: I think it could be before 2006, because the graphics were a little dated for that time.
Graphics/art style: It was a full 3D Pokémon fan game. Again the Graphics were comparable to the N64. The draw distance on the world was very low as well. Everything from the moves to the player had a very low poly count. The world was flat with some hills, I remember you could go into buildings as well. There was a poke center shaped like a poke ball, and then I remember there was also this giant while building that you could catch Pokémon in.
Notable characters: first off, I don’t think the Pokémon went past Gen 2. I remember bayleef being in it at one point, as well as ghastly. I believe the player was a model of ash from the show.
Notable gameplay mechanics: battles were a thing. I remember them being slightly animated, but not much. I don’t believe there was a free cam. You could catch Pokémon, and again battles worked in full.
Other details: all I have left to say is that I played this game on an old windows XP laptop years back. I don’t think the game was ever finished and it was more of a sandbox experiment.
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2020.10.29 03:06 twofacedflyer Ranking The TDWT Characters Day 17

Ranking The TDWT Characters Day 17

2nd Alejandro:

So I want you to think for second right now, what makes a good Total Drama villain? Well there are many factors, their villainous strategy and how effective it is, how entertaining their presences is, how much they make you hate them and how satisfying their final downfall(if there even is one). You could make an argument for every villain in the series being the best(some are harder than others), but for me pound for pound there is no better villain in the series than WT Alejandro.
Alejandro is one of the two(technically three I know) characters added to World Tour, and he initially appears to be quite the gentleman. He is polite, educated and kind to others, to the point where nearly everyone takes an instant liking to him, but this is all part of his master plan. While Heather used her alliances(and a heaping pile of luck) to survive the game, and Courtney the much more blunt but equally effective method of outright cheating to stay ahead, Alejandro's plan is a bit more nuanced. Alejandro is the ultimate wolf in sheep's clothing, playing the nice guy while exploiting the weaknesses of the others, from Harold’s pride, DJ’s kindness, Leshawna’s confidence, Courtney’s emotional vulnerabilities, or Tyler’s loyalty. He also decided to take a cue from Justin, using his charms to manipulate pretty much every female contestant during the season(with the exception of Sierra and Blaineley). His strategy helps him to completely dominate the season, he remains firmly in control almost never in danger, and gets rid of whoever he wants, well until the end that is. From the very beginning Heather saw Alejandro for who he was, and subsequently spent the season locked in a cat and mouse game against him. This all culminates in him getting all the way to the final two against her, and in an end fitting for his actions he gets defeated as his own emotions are used against him.
Alejandro is without a doubt my favorite Total Drama villain, he is just the best in every facet. If nothing else he is by far the most ruthlessly efficient villain in the entire series,with the exception of a small few(Ezekiel, Lindsay, Izzy, Sierra) every elimination of the season happens in part because of him. And the reason for that is his killer strategy. He’s just a dominant force in every aspect, he is physically strong(he can tie his hair with his feet for god sakes), he is incredibly smart(he manages to outsmart several characters), and he plays a vicious social game(almost no one suspects him until it's too late). Some say he is a Gary Stu because of ths, I disagree. If you think of all three Gen 1 seasons as interconnected, then World Tour is essentially the final chapter of their story, it's a season where everything gets ramped up, the plot, the romances, the setting. So does it not make sense that the biggest season would have the most threatening villain, a villain who is seemingly unstoppable, the first villain to actually make it to the final two(and technically win). Plus all his skills leads to him being a fun villain to watch, there are so many moments where it seems he will finally get what’s coming to him, yet he just barely manages to make it out, it makes you mad but in a good way because It keeps you engaged in the story, if only to see him finally get his comeuppance. It's what makes his eventual downfall(as excessive as it is) so satisfying, because you’d spent and entire season watching him crush callously and with little reprisal, to see him finally get a taste of his own medicine, and fall right before the end, is just the perfect end to his story, well in Heather’s ending at least(The only one I consider canon).
His wide litany of skills also leads to another reason I like him, he’s just so cool. For those of you who are familiar with the world of pro wrestling there is a term known as a Cool Heel, a Cool Heel is a guy who by all his actions is bad guy and is supposed to be hated, but people can’t help cheering for anyways because of how awesome they are, for example villains like Darth Vader, Doctor Doom, Deathstroke, or for a wrestling example The Rock actual got popular as a villain, Alejandro falls into this category. He’s just so cool, from his charm, to his laundry list of abilities,(I mean it almost becomes comical the amount of things he’s good at), to his smooth talking and manipulation skills. He’s someone who’s just fun to watch, he just has this charm and coolness factor to him where I may heavily disagree with his actions, but I still like watching him do it. Which too marks the best kind of villain, the one you hate, but at the same time part of you wants to be.
Now the cherry on the top of the Alejandro is of course the Aleheather storyline. While Alejandro has his fair share of great rivalries during the season which I’ve already talked at length about(Cody, Owen, Noah, Duncan), but they all pale in comparison to his rivalry/relationship with Heather. Their rivalry is like the ultimate clash of the titans, the unstoppable force meeting the immovable object, their battle against each other, as they consistently manage to one up each other. But even beyond that their intense hatred of each other, also lies intense love. Now I my favorite crack ship may be HeatherXCody, but as far as canon ships go Aleheather is one of my favorites(probably Top 3 next too REDACTED and REDACTED). Its sort of like Duncany, where their initial hatred for one another eventually blossoms into a sweet romance, but unlike Duncany Alejandro and Heather are actually compatible people. They complete each other in a fun way, and one of the most heartwarming moments of the season comes during the finale when they finally confess their feelings towards one another(only to be followed by one of the most cathartic moments of the season). Now I would go even deeper into why I love this duo, but I’m saving that for the next entry(and this is getting long enough as is.
So if I haven’t made it clear by now I love Alejandro, he’s a great character and an even greater antagonist. He’s easily the best new edition made to World Tour(Well him or the songs), he’s fun character to watch, a fun character to hate, and helps to drive the plot forward, he’s an utterly fantastic villain who has quite possibly the best and most effective strategy of any character before or since, and is a linchpin in keeping the season engaging. What can I say, he’s tall, he’s tanned, he’s young, he’s handsome, and he is the best villain in series history.
\"A Real Villain's Villain\"
End Note: Yeah I know this one was predictable(My Flair kind of gave it away) but it is my opinion after all.
But if you can believe it we are one post away from being done with World Tour , but speaking of that post it may come out tomorrow . I have something to work on, that I've been procrastinating on for a while(don't follow my example kids), and without fail these writeups take longer than I expect them to every time(yet I still get shocked by this). But another reason is that I very much anticipate Heather's entry to be the longest one to date, but trust me it's going to be worth it(at least I really hope it is), because I've been planning for this one for a while, it's going to be different structure wise compared to the other entries so be prepared for that. But just know I've been looking forward to it since I started doing these.
So be sure to tune in whenever it actually comes out, as I talk about the Queen Bee of Total Drama World Tour, HEATHER!
Also as a quick aside(since I could fit this in the actual ranking writeup), one of my favorite little minor storytelling details in the series comes from Alejandro. As the season goes on his singing voice begins to become more and more auto tuned, it's done as the audience learns more and more about him, to show just how fake he really is. Pretty clever huh.

Ranking

18th: Ezekiel
17th: Blaineley
16th: Duncan
15th: Izzy
14th: Leshawna
13th: Bridgette
12th: Harold
11th: DJ
10th: Lindsay
9th: Tyler
8th: Sierra
7th: Gwen
6th: Owen
5th: Courtney
4th: Noah
3rd: Cody
2nd: Alejandro
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2020.10.29 03:03 itsjero Towed Array - need some insight please

Ok so I know the towed Array with this game is a dead horse that's been beat all too much. However I have some questions maybe someone can answer.
Deployment - is there a key control or an in game menu that lets you deploy and retract the towed Array?
In game visuals - I have run two builds of cold waters. One that's stock, up to date and vanilla all except for adding the typhoon. I also have the epic mod installed and sometimes.. more now than running non modded game. However sometimes I see a picture that someone posts of in game shots. I can clearly see a line coming out of the back of the sub.. obviously a towed Array. I myself have NEVER seen this in my personal games, but I've seen a few pics showing the array.
So, to sum up.. is there key commands that put out and retract the array? If so, what are they.
Next, what speeds work with the towed Array? When can you deploy it, or if it's automatically deployed, at what speed does this happen? What's the slowest and fastest you can run with the array out? Always when I get to port for repairs or munitions, I almost always have to repair it. With that said it makes me assume it's an automatic part of the game, but I'd love to know how to prevent this damage.
I'd also love to know where you see the arrays stats on the sonar panel. And, if you're feeling extra helpful, maybe give me a quick run down on what the negative and positive numbers mean in the panel. At what number should you know you've been detected, what number should you shoot for in general that lets you know your still an underwater ninja and no one knows you're there.
So thats it. I've seen pics where you can clearly see the line coming from the back of the boat and in all my times playing ive never seen it in my game, during the epic mod or not. Maybe I need another mod to make this happen, or I'm not running the most up to date patch for cold waters or up to date mod version on the epic mod
Thanks so much. It's not a huge deal but it's something that's bugged me and is like to know these answers. How to use it, speeds to use it at, how to not damage it, and where to find what the arrays data and how to interpret those numbers.
Thanks again, and I'll catch you under the waves..
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2020.10.29 03:02 makememakeyoumakeme 35 [M4F] - Illinois/US - Its the end of the world as we know it and I feel fine (not really but mostly fine!)! Looking for awesome connections and potential romance to explore further!

Now that the song is stuck in both my head and yours, hi! Welcome, pull up a seat, make yourself comfortable (6 feet apart!).
I'm an ENM/Polyamorous he/him fella looking to form (ideally) long term intimate connections, full of vulnerability, laughter, support and great times. I thrive on making someone laugh and feel cared for and loved and supported (as well as have all that reciprocated, of course!) and hoping to meet someone (or someones!) that vibes with me in that regard.
A bit about me? Sure! Why not? As I stated, 35 years old, identify as he/him, partnered with a lovely gal (we date separately, not looking for triads or unicorns) and the polyamorous dynamic we strive for is kitchen table/non-hierarchical. She is my nesting partner, which comes with all that is entailed but I don't like the concept of primaries/secondaries etc so that is not a dynamic I'd ever be interested in.
I'm socially liberal as fuck (voted Bernie, socialist democrat to the bones), a giant fucking dork (comic books, D&D, card games, board games, video games), dabble in anime, love me a great sci-fi/fantasy story/movie/game and love to watch shows and go out to movies (ah, I can't wait to do that again). None of these hobbies/interests are required in someone, of course, but I do hope you share similar political opinions and thoughts.
Pre corona, I loved to travel and am looking forward to doing so again. I have plans to visit New Zealand, Greenland and a whole lot more, including visiting various states in the U.S and hitting up great B&Bs.
I'm sex and body positive, GGG, kink friendly and always up to discuss social, gender and racial issues.
Physically, I'm 5'11, bespectacled, brown skinned, chubby/dad bod and bearded. I'm more than willing to exchange pictures as well.
I'd love to hear from you if you made it this far! Good luck out there and please, stay safe.
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2020.10.29 02:42 F8_ Patch 0.95.3 Howloween Update! Night Mode, 3 Super Breeds and more!

Patch 0.95.3 Howloween Update! Night Mode, 3 Super Breeds and more!
Steam Patch Notes Link
Super Howloween Arrives on the Island
Explore the island at night while earning 9 new Howloween items and 18 legacy items!
Night has fallen in Super Animal World. The moon is out, the graveyard is stirring, and Howloween has begun! October 31st is the anniversary of the day Super Animal Royale Tonight host Howl Michaels first stepped out of his fermentation tank and into our hearts. In celebration, the Super Animals have set up halloween decorations and scattered Candy Corn around the island that you can redeem for your very own costumes!
Three super spooky new animal breeds also arrive in the research lab:
Super Zombie Tiger (inspired by Community Member & Super Artist Piers)
Super Candycorn Ferret
Super Dracula Parrot
Don't forget to also rock your best costumes on last year's Howloween Super Animal breeds! The Super Skelecat, Super Pumpkin Panda, Super Werewolf and Super Vampire Bat are all still available to create in the Research Lab as well.
Night has fallen and Howloween decorations are set up!
When the event begins, there will be a 25% chance that each match you play takes place at night! At night, your vision becomes directional with a flashlight beam letting you see what is in front of you, while objects behind you become shrouded in shadow.
On the 31st, the chance for night time will rise to 50% and then in November it’ll drop to a rare occurrence.
Outside of the new night mode, Howloween decorations also include:
  • The Welcome Center fountain dressed up in its Howloween best, with spooky music and orange lighting during night mode.
  • Jack-o-lanterns placed around the Welcome Center.
  • Spectator ghosts now haunt the graves of fallen Super Animals.
  • The delivery mole has his own impressive, definitely-not-real zombie costume.

Earn 9 New Cosmetic Items with Candy Corn
  • Candycorn Sniper
  • Skeleton AK
  • Skull Bow
  • Bat Wing Outfit
  • Bolts Hat
  • Frankenstein Outfit
  • Cauldron Gravestone
  • Devil Pitchfork Melee
  • Pumpkin Costume

Earn 18 Legacy Cosmetic Items
Spend 450 candy corn per item to earn all 18 legacy Howloween items (you're guaranteed to get a random new item each time, with no duplicates, so you can complete the whole set)!
  • Witch's Broom
  • Machete
  • Spider Dress
  • Witch Costume
  • Caveman Costume
  • Skeleton Costume
  • Halloween Tee
  • Pumpkin Hat
  • Vampire Outfit
  • Super Bat Costume
  • Witch Hat
  • Killer Hockey Mask
  • Black Masquerade Mask
  • Super Bat Mask
  • Pumpkin Umbrella
  • Candy Corn Umbrella
  • Spider Web Umbrella
  • Pumpkin Gravestone
The Pirate’s Cutlass and Banana Costume have been removed from the Halloween legacy item set and will show up year-round instead in Cackling Carl’s Cart when our major update arrives. Code “DayOfTheDead” has also been re-enabled, and we’ll have a surprise Howloween code reveal on our social media later this week on Halloween day!

Major Update Coming Soon

Thank you so much to everyone who has helped us test and provided feedback on our major new update in the PTR. We need a bit more time to polish up all the final details before it's ready to release, so we're delaying the full update into November, but will have more details on the new release date very soon and are racing to get it ready for release before the Halloween event is complete if we can pull it off! We'll post all of the details here when they're ready.
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2020.10.29 02:29 KJCPOP My (23F) BF (26M) still having issues with my ex even though I had deleted him off every social media at BF’s request

I have been with my boyfriend for 5 months now and at the start of the relationship I had mentioned my ex a few times. I haven’t mentioned him anymore as my BF he’s not comfortable with me talking about my ex even though he does talk about his exes when I asked him about it. We had set a boundary that we will never bring up any of your exes ever again and I will remove my ex from my social media to keep him happy, my BF deletes his exes from his life after they broke up. My ex and I shared a friends group that I had invited him to join since I thought back then he would get along well with these people. Also, it was a toxic relationship with my ex so I wanted to make the current one as healthy as possible and I used to be easily jealous and such but I have since then worked on myself.
We have a group chat that he’s part of but my BF isn’t as I don’t want to make the mistake again of inviting a partner into the group as it was a bit awkward after my ex and I broke up. My BF was pissed that my ex get to be in the group but not him as that friend group is like my family where I can always ask for advice and such.
Also, my friend group said a behaviour my BF had displayed is a red flag which was when we started dating. Both of us were playing the same game on mobile which is pretty much League of Legend, he got pissed and called me on the phone being angry with me that I had played 3 games in a row with a guy in the game and asked if that’s my ex. I was confused and told him no my ex doesn’t play this game and this guy was someone I got matched with randomly and put into the same team. I only played two games with that guy as I realised the game got harder when you have friends or people you played with before in your team. He told me he got evidence that I had played 3 games with that guy and said he will provide the evidence and it turns out it was a glitch on his side and it only showed I had played 2 games with that guy on my profile. I can’t remember did he apologised or anything for accusing me and getting all angry with me.
We had an argument today where he was saying that he is uncomfortable with me being invited to the friend group dinner and that I would see my ex there but it depends if my ex accepted the invite or not. I asked him that does it mean he don’t want me to go since I might see my ex there and I also said there would be other people too. It’s not like I can avoid seeing my ex and miss out on these dinner and whatnot with my friend group. He then said if I am going to the dinner then he would contact his ex and catch up with her and I told him go ahead as I don’t get jealous over these things anymore. He’s sensitive about exes cuz he got cheated on before by his first ex just like me by my last ex. He told me it’s basic decency/caring that he should be invited too to the dinner and I asked one of my friend’s who organised it and sent the invites. He said to invite him and also said he sent my ex the invite but he haven’t accepted or declined the invite.
There are many issues in this relationship and I am getting tired of it as we had many arguments started by him. My friends had all said to break up with him since he can’t really satisfy me anyway
Please give me advice on what should I do and does it matter if my ex is still somewhat in my life due to the friend group I have.
Thanks
Edit: 5 months not 8 months
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2020.10.29 02:22 throwaway900530 Boyfriend (25/M) of 7 years broke up with me (25/F) seemingly out of the blue, I'm worried about his mental health.

This might be long, so I'm sorry in advance. I guess I'm venting / asking for advice all at the same time. English is not my first language so sorry for any mistakes I might make.
Just a few days ago we were talking about marriage, he told me "you're my future" many times. I was there for him through thick and thin despite all the hard times we faced as friends and as a couple.
He has history of abuse since he was a kid, his parents basically went from overprotective to straight up neglecting him. His grandparents helped him but sadly, there wasn't much they could do and they've already passed away. He never finished high school because he didn't have money and his parents didn't care, he started to work young and he settled on the idea of never getting a degree or something as no one was there to support him or anything.
When I came into his life I tried my best to show him how much I loved him, I come from a loving household and my parents have a very strong marriage so I don't like casual dating, I genuinely wanted to find true love. I guess this was too much for him , as he always had a problem with how affectionate I was or how much I cared for him. It was like he felt he didn't deserve it or he wasn't used to it, as a result he started to push me away and he did some awful things to me.
We always worked through it, but it was so weird how he went from being so grateful I was in his life to suddenly hating me and wanting me as far away as possible. Like either he loved me or hated me or didn't care about me at all. I started to walk on eggshells around him to avoid setting him off by accident and causing a major discussion or fight. I could never get angry as he always had to be right, but whenever he was mad at me he would find ways to punish me and it caused me to develop severe anxiety anytime he was angry at me.
Things had been very good lately, months had passed with no major incidents, I could talk to him about my insecurities and about his past behavior and instead of getting mad he would confort me and listen to me which helped strengthen the relationship a lot and we started to talk about moving out together and get married.
It all came crashing down in flames when I had a reunion with my friends at my home 4 days ago, he hadn't slept at all because the night before that he was out playing games with friends and they pull an all nighter as it had been a while since they've seen each other. He reassured me he was fine and wanted to be there with my friends and I, I let him took a shower at my home (I have most of his clothes here anyways) and when he didn't like what my friends bring to eat I prepared him something else, I was worried about his lack of sleep so I was taking care of him as well as attending my friends.
One of my friends brought pot brownies, he's a pushy guy and insisted we all tried them out, it wasn't my first time trying pot but it had been years since that happened and I've only tried it once before, which we talked about in front of my bf, he seemed to want to try the brownies as well but after a bite he found them disgusting. We were joking around, I ate one and my bf didn't seem to mind. Until he suddenly got mad at me, even my friends were confused as to what had happened. My friend wanted us to eat another one, and when he told my bf to please eat another one I told him he hadn't eaten the other one and returned it to my friend, who gave it to my bf and told him to eat it (my friend was already high and always does this kind of playful begging, although if you say No he will back off and just laugh about it, he doesnt force anyone). My bf told him he didn't want to, and I said to my friend "if he doesn't want to then he doesn't have to try it, let him be" to which my bf angrily said to me "shut your fucking mouth, no one's talking to you". I could see the shock on my friends faces and I felt so embarrassed.
He took a bite of the brownie anyways, he spit it out and went to vomit to the bathroom. I tried talking to him but he pushed me away, called me an addict and told me to go back with my addict friends. After a bit my friends left and I found my bf on the floor of the guests bedroom. Everytime I tried to touched him he would flinch, his stomach was growling and he was covering his face with a blanket. I told him to please get on the bed, I tried giving him medicine for his stomach ache (he hadn't drink at all that night) and he refused. He went home on an Uber and ever since then he hasn't stopped calling me and addict and wishing he was dead, he blames me for how sick he felt and says I wanted to turn him into an addict like me. He says he doesn't care about me anymore, that I'm trash and that he doesn't love me anymore and even accused me of cheating on him with my friends.
My mom has tried talking to him but he's very hostile towards her, to the point my mother doesn't want me dating him anymore. He's never been like that towards her, and yesterday he came to my home around 11 pm, it was cold and raining outside and all he had on was a t-shirt with a long sleeve buttoned shirt over it. He's always hated the cold and walking under the rain so I was so confused when I saw him only wearing that, I asked him to please wear a jacket and he refused. I told him if he didn't love me anymore I would accept it, that I was sorry and to please forgive me. He didn't say a word until I brought up the reunion and he got so mad, he called me an addict again and refused to apologize to my mom. I know what I did then was wrong, but as a coping mechanism sometimes I hit myself or cut myself which he knows I did. He told me I surely did that as a side effect of all the drugs in my system, I haven't tried anything other than pot, and I've only tried that twice in my life. He's spend almost every day with me and even my mom told him there was no way I was doing drugs as I barely went out if it wasn't with him and my mom, as a nurse, would notice the effects on my in an instant (I still live with my parents, normal in my country).
He didn't believed us, and stormed off. The long sleeve shirt he had on was a gift from my mother and he started to take it off in the middle of the street at 12 pm with rain falling on him and such a cold weather outside. My mom tried to stopped him and told him to please keep it as he could get sick. He refused and even took his other shirt off and went away. Luckily he returned shortly after and asked me to give him the t shirt (I went outside and picked them up) and an Uber picked him up. What really disturbed me was the way he looked at me when he said "you don't care about me anymore, no one in your family does, no one cares about me!" And when I told him that was a lie and my mom and I did care he simply said "I'll make sure you won't anymore".
Today he told me again he doesn't love me and he's going to die soon. He thinks I'm disgusting, and I did something I'm not proud about but I spitted on him when came to my home for an amazon package and when I tried talking to him when he left he forced me back inside and was grabbing my hands with so much force that his nails were already causing me to bleed a little. I was so angry, I don't know why I did that, I was just so baffled, so hurt, so mad, so disappointed. I couldn't recognize the person in front of me.
He's still acting like I'm the worst of the worst, saying that he will never forgive me for forcing him to eat that brownie (I didn't but apparently pointing out the fact he hadn't eaten one was me trying to turn him into an addict just like me, even if I'm not one), he doesn't care about me anymore and told me to throw away all of his belongings that I have. Keep in mind I have almost all of his wardrobe here, I did his laundry as his dad is a hoarder so he didn't have any space to put them. His living conditions are so bad we wanted to move out together so he could get out of that literally toxic place, but I guess that's not going to happen anymore. I still have some of his videogames, comics, shoes, like it worries me that he expects me to just get rid of everything. He laughs about how he's going to die soon anyway and there's nothing I can do, he says he's going to leave his human form behind (????) And finally be free.
He's had bad episodes before, so I'm thinking he might have an undiagnosed condition like bpd or something, he's taking things into an extreme and saying goodbye to our relationship and me like we were nothing. It's not the first time he talks about not being human but I always thought that was just him avoiding responsibilities or messing with me, I've gotten into fights with this entities but it was never this badly. Like yeah, those fights were awful but never putting his health at risk, hating me so much he doesn't love me at all anymore, demanding me to throw away all of his belongings away, fighting with my parents bad.
I stopped talking to him as it is too painful to see message after message of him saying he doesn't care about me anymore and that I'm disgusting to him. He doesn't want me around at all and he keeps saying I don't really care about him and there's nothing I can say that will make him believe me. I'm at a loss and I feel so stupid for inviting my friends over, I feel so guilty and so desperate. I want my old bf back and it's like all it took was one night for me to lose him. I'm keeping my distance as I feel I already screw everything up as it is, I just don't understand why he's acting like this?
**TL;DR: Been with bf for 7 years, lots of ups and downs during the relationship although things had been very good lately. After a reunion with friends were pot brownies were involved, he accused me of being an addict for eating one despite the fact I've only tried pot once before in my life many years ago, he won't stop saying I'm disgusting and he doesn't want me anymore. Says he's going to die soon and it's all my fault. He even stripped down in the could weather under the rain despite my mother's and I concerns, told me he would make me stop caring about him. Says he will leave behind his human form and wants me to dump all of his stuff away into the trash. I feel terrible and I'm blaming myself for how much he hates me and how he's putting his health at risk. We were so happy until that night, I feel he's overreacting but I don't know how to convince him I'm not the person he thinks I am.
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2020.10.29 01:55 throwaway900530 Bf (25/M) of 7 years broke up with me(25/F) seemingly out of the blue and I'm worried about his mental health.

This might be long, so I'm sorry in advance. I guess I'm venting / asking for advice all at the same time. English is not my first language so sorry for any mistakes I might make.
Just a few days ago we were talking about marriage, he told me "you're my future" many times. I was there for him through thick and thin despite all the hard times we faced as friends and as a couple.
He has history of abuse since he was a kid, his parents basically went from overprotective to straight up neglecting him. His grandparents helped him but sadly, there wasn't much they could do and they've already passed away. He never finished high school because he didn't have money and his parents didn't care, he started to work young and he settled on the idea of never getting a degree or something as no one was there to support him or anything.
When I came into his life I tried my best to show him how much I loved him, I come from a loving household and my parents have a very strong marriage so I don't like casual dating, I genuinely wanted to find true love. I guess this was too much for him , as he always had a problem with how affectionate I was or how much I cared for him. It was like he felt he didn't deserve it or he wasn't used to it, as a result he started to push me away and he did some awful things to me.
We always worked through it, but it was so weird how he went from being so grateful I was in his life to suddenly hating me and wanting me as far away as possible. Like either he loved me or hated me or didn't care about me at all. I started to walk on eggshells around him to avoid setting him off by accident and causing a major discussion or fight. I could never get angry as he always had to be right, but whenever he was mad at me he would find ways to punish me and it caused me to develop severe anxiety anytime he was angry at me.
Things had been very good lately, months had passed with no major incidents, I could talk to him about my insecurities and about his past behavior and instead of getting mad he would confort me and listen to me which helped strengthen the relationship a lot and we started to talk about moving out together and get married.
It all came crashing down in flames when I had a reunion with my friends at my home 4 days ago, he hadn't slept at all because the night before that he was out playing games with friends and they pull an all nighter as it had been a while since they've seen each other. He reassured me he was fine and wanted to be there with my friends and I, I let him took a shower at my home (I have most of his clothes here anyways) and when he didn't like what my friends bring to eat I prepared him something else, I was worried about his lack of sleep so I was taking care of him as well as attending my friends.
One of my friends brought pot brownies, he's a pushy guy and insisted we all tried them out, it wasn't my first time trying pot but it had been years since that happened and I've only tried it once before, which we talked about in front of my bf, he seemed to want to try the brownies as well but after a bite he found them disgusting. We were joking around, I ate one and my bf didn't seem to mind. Until he suddenly got mad at me, even my friends were confused as to what had happened. My friend wanted us to eat another one, and when he told my bf to please eat another one I told him he hadn't eaten the other one and returned it to my friend, who gave it to my bf and told him to eat it (my friend was already high and always does this kind of playful begging, although if you say No he will back off and just laugh about it, he doesnt force anyone). My bf told him he didn't want to, and I said to my friend "if he doesn't want to then he doesn't have to try it, let him be" to which my bf angrily said to me "shut your fucking mouth, no one's talking to you". I could see the shock on my friends faces and I felt so embarrassed.
He took a bite of the brownie anyways, he spit it out and went to vomit to the bathroom. I tried talking to him but he pushed me away, called me an addict and told me to go back with my addict friends. After a bit my friends left and I found my bf on the floor of the guests bedroom. Everytime I tried to touched him he would flinch, his stomach was growling and he was covering his face with a blanket. I told him to please get on the bed, I tried giving him medicine for his stomach ache (he hadn't drink at all that night) and he refused. He went home on an Uber and ever since then he hasn't stopped calling me and addict and wishing he was dead, he blames me for how sick he felt and says I wanted to turn him into an addict like me. He says he doesn't care about me anymore, that I'm trash and that he doesn't love me anymore and even accused me of cheating on him with my friends.
My mom has tried talking to him but he's very hostile towards her, to the point my mother doesn't want me dating him anymore. He's never been like that towards her, and yesterday he came to my home around 11 pm, it was cold and raining outside and all he had on was a t-shirt with a long sleeve buttoned shirt over it. He's always hated the cold and walking under the rain so I was so confused when I saw him only wearing that, I asked him to please wear a jacket and he refused. I told him if he didn't love me anymore I would accept it, that I was sorry and to please forgive me. He didn't say a word until I brought up the reunion and he got so mad, he called me an addict again and refused to apologize to my mom. I know what I did then was wrong, but as a coping mechanism sometimes I hit myself or cut myself which he knows I did. He told me I surely did that as a side effect of all the drugs in my system, I haven't tried anything other than pot, and I've only tried that twice in my life. He's spend almost every day with me and even my mom told him there was no way I was doing drugs as I barely went out if it wasn't with him and my mom, as a nurse, would notice the effects on my in an instant (I still live with my parents, normal in my country).
He didn't believed us, and stormed off. The long sleeve shirt he had on was a gift from my mother and he started to take it off in the middle of the street at 12 pm with rain falling on him and such a cold weather outside. My mom tried to stopped him and told him to please keep it as he could get sick. He refused and even took his other shirt off and went away. Luckily he returned shortly after and asked me to give him the t shirt (I went outside and picked them up) and an Uber picked him up. What really disturbed me was the way he looked at me when he said "you don't care about me anymore, no one in your family does, no one cares about me!" And when I told him that was a lie and my mom and I did care he simply said "I'll make sure you won't anymore".
Today he told me again he doesn't love me and he's going to die soon. He thinks I'm disgusting, and I did something I'm not proud about but I spitted on him when came to my home for an amazon package and when I tried talking to him when he left he forced me back inside and was grabbing my hands with so much force that his nails were already causing me to bleed a little. I was so angry, I don't know why I did that, I was just so baffled, so hurt, so mad, so disappointed. I couldn't recognize the person in front of me.
He's still acting like I'm the worst of the worst, saying that he will never forgive me for forcing him to eat that brownie (I didn't but apparently pointing out the fact he hadn't eaten one was me trying to turn him into an addict just like me, even if I'm not one), he doesn't care about me anymore and told me to throw away all of his belongings that I have. Keep in mind I have almost all of his wardrobe here, I did his laundry as his dad is a hoarder so he didn't have any space to put them. His living conditions are so bad we wanted to move out together so he could get out of that literally toxic place, but I guess that's not going to happen anymore. I still have some of his videogames, comics, shoes, like it worries me that he expects me to just get rid of everything. He laughs about how he's going to die soon anyway and there's nothing I can do, he says he's going to leave his human form behind (????) And finally be free.
He's had bad episodes before, so I'm thinking he might have an undiagnosed condition like bpd or something, he's taking things into an extreme and saying goodbye to our relationship and me like we were nothing. It's not the first time he talks about not being human but I always thought that was just him avoiding responsibilities or messing with me, I've gotten into fights with this entities but it was never this badly. Like yeah, those fights were awful but never putting his health at risk, hating me so much he doesn't love me at all anymore, demanding me to throw away all of his belongings away, fighting with my parents bad.
I stopped talking to him as it is too painful to see message after message of him saying he doesn't care about me anymore and that I'm disgusting to him. He doesn't want me around at all and he keeps saying I don't really care about him and there's nothing I can say that will make him believe me. I'm at a loss and I feel so stupid for inviting my friends over, I feel so guilty and so desperate. I want my old bf back and it's like all it took was one night for me to lose him. I'm keeping my distance as I feel I already screw everything up as it is, I just don't understand why he's acting like this?
**TL;DR: Been with bf for 7 years, lots of ups and downs during the relationship although things had been very good lately. After a reunion with friends were pot brownies were involved, he accused me of being an addict for eating one despite the fact I've only tried pot once before in my life many years ago, he won't stop saying I'm disgusting and he doesn't want me anymore. Says he's going to die soon and it's all my fault. He even stripped down in the could weather under the rain despite my mother's and I concerns, told me he would make me stop caring about him. Says he will leave behind his human form and wants me to dump all of his stuff away into the trash. I feel terrible and I'm blaming myself for how much he hates me and how he's putting his health at risk. We were so happy until that night, I feel he's overreacting but I don't know how to convince him I'm not the person he thinks I am.
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2020.10.29 01:50 outlier077 [LISTING] Looking for a roommate for our 3 BR/1 BA UWS apt!

[LISTING] Looking for a roommate for our 3 B1 BA UWS apt!
**DISCOUNTED** Beautiful, bright, private room on Upper West Side
*** Originally $1400, now $1300 plus utilities ***
Min. 6 month sublet (option to extend) with move-in date Nov 14th or Dec 1st (negotiable)
Hi there!
My roommate and I are looking for a third roommate as one of our roommates is moving out. Her room will be available starting Nov 14th.
Details:
  • Rent is originally $1,400 but reduced to $1,300/month. We’ll cover the difference :)
  • Spacious private bedroom (16 ft x 7 ft) with plenty of natural sunlight in a 3BR walkup in the heart of UWS. The apartment unit is facing the back of the street, so no street noises.
  • Room is furnished with 1 year-old Queen-size memory foam bed + drawer, and an option to buy the current roommate’s desk / closet / night stand
  • Kitchen comes with a full stove, oven, microwave and we are willing to share all of our other appliances (blender, toaster), dishes and what not
  • Common areas include a spacious living room (with a few-weeks-old new couch), kitchen, and bathroom.
  • Living room has a TV set and playstation 4. Our shared subscriptions are Netflix, Hulu, HBO Max, and Amazon Prime :)
  • Washer and Dryer in the basement
  • Apartment video tour: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V3lxNoGDJq8
Locations:
  • Apartment is a 5 min walk from 72nd 1/2/3 express subway stop, 79th 1 local stop and 81st A/C lines stop.
  • 10 min walk from the Riverside Park and the Central Park!
  • Safe, vibrant neighborhood with tons of restaurants, cafes (Blue bottle, Irving Farm, Joe Coffee), museums, grocery stores (Fairway, Trader Joe’s and Sunday farmer’s market), etc.
We are:
Sara and I are both clean, respectful and chill. We’ve lived in this apartment for the past 3 years and we truly love it! I work in Tech and Sara is currently pursuing her Master’s degree in NYU. We enjoy cooking, sour beer, making cocktails, playing board games and watching movies together in our free time. We are both COVID-conscious, and we are seeking an equally respectful roommate.
Don't hesitate to reach out and ask any questions if you have any interest in our apartment. We can show the apartment in person or over FaceTime, whichever way you feel comfortable!
Thanks!

Spacious private bedroom (16 ft x 7 ft) with plenty of natural sunlight
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2020.10.29 01:35 MercuriallyApathetic Libation Finale (Of Roundabouts and Revolutions)

We begin the sunset rite, to mark a conclusion and bring forth an ending.


The sprites met no final, apocalyptic battle by which their vital thread was spent to weave legends into the tapestry.

Rubysprite would remain under the Novikovs' service. It, alongside a scant few ghosts who spoke only singular words, one of them only a greeting, would remain in Lara's orbit for the foreseeable future, and she would welcome their companionship and guidance.

Batsprite would disappear, for minutes and hours and days. Inevitably, Alicia would catch on, that he explored the world when he could, to learn more about it. In his own way, he was a curious sort, insofar that a sprite prototyped with the exploits of Earth's greatest detective can have any attributes ascribed to him.

Herosprite set off to travel across the Land, as ronin are wont to do, aimless save the preservation of justice. Word travels back to Lawclaw every other week, about this ghost who walks among them, skilled in sword and gun alike. Altria has zero surprise about any of this.

Empresssprite would inevitably meet up with Misera, and ended up on Derse as she did. Last Batsprite spoke, they both sat on advisory boards, overseeing Derse's reconstruction. And have spiked Derse's seafood imports, supposedly.

Bearsprite lives with the Sykes household still; he has no need for food, or drink, or board. A babysitter, a companion, and an occasional cleaner. How he gets the dishes done is a bit of a mystery best contemplated on not right this second.


Sylvester wakes from his stupor. He fell asleep in the office again, if the half-eaten sandwich and the empty bottle are any indication. The tuna stinks something awful, aromas mixed with that of dried whiskey and spittle mixed together. The very thought makes his stomach churn.

He scarfs down the sandwich and sees to making himself presentable. Port Diluvian is resuming commerce, and his vigilance will be needed, lest more cats attempt to smuggle in subversive plays to mire the mind.

A droning noise that wasn't there before. He leans over to look up, finding violet shells of metal borne aloft by physics explained in classes he never attended. The carapacians had taken a greater interest in trade as of late. There were even talks of immigration quotas being established, to allow the adventurous among them to work and live on that strange little moon.

The cat wasn't a particularly driven feline, except where mystery lay in wait. He had no particular interest in moving; he could count on the patience of saints where his alcoholism was involved, and he knew this. His talents may be going to waste, certainly, but he could hold down a job here.

Then he wonders about what sorts of problems carapacians had, their inequities and divisions, and curiosity dug its talons into him.

Derse was supposed to be doing poorly, wasn't it? The corruption that was endemic to its workings was purged, but something two thousand police officers were stripped of their badges.

"....fuck."

He would leave within the month, his curiosity getting the better of him. A chance encounter with another cat at the scene of a murder, some girl from Port Diluvian who also worked with Alicia for a time, would mark the start of an eventful few years.


Counting sidewalk tiles, alignments of street signs, dates of discarded newspapers, streaks of piss and liquor. Such is the town. Most see these things and leave it alone at that, perhaps even write about it in some book with beige prose that might've been popular if their last name were... something besides Hemingway, the only people who would get this reference would know who the right person is.

In your name we offered four doves, fattened and plucked, and you uncovered the wicked and the decadent and the deceitful whose rot had infected the dream kingdom.

Well, you know one person. You might even ask him when you get home.

In your name we offered an unmilked cow, a year and a day old, and the sour fruits of your search did not lead you astray.

The town's loud. It'll get a bit louder. Rush hour's coming as night prepares its, well, nightly presence. It's a diva like that.

In your name we recited the canticle of preservation at dawn and dusk, and you followed the Daedaelian scion in your quest for the searing light of the Primarch, only to rise anew like the phoenix whose wings burn with a searing light that does not dim.

You're Alicia Martinson, and no one will forget it.

Going home from work so you can catch a pocket fulla Zs before your nightly work. It's hard to tell someone else's story, and unrewarding. Your own story's not much easier as you've come to find, but night's embrace helps the words flow.

You are the Maid of Light, the Hawkshaw, and deceit is only so much wet paper before your radiance. Truth and its descrying is your demense, and nothing will remain hidden against you.

Do people need to hear all the gritty details?


The Upstart Legionary calls the Gilded Legion to attention, on Sapienza's campus. Their numbers are bolstered and bloodied, and more since have flocked to that aureate banner in the wake of the riots. Derse is powerless to enact their will; Prospit's chance has finally come.

"A society is totalitarian when, its structure has become artificial." he says, pacing about the grass. "That is, when its ruling class has lost its function but succeeds in clinging to power, by force or by fraud. This, we have known for all our lives. It has in every respect failed you. Failed us. Failed Prospit."

Silence, as the thousands of students flock around, though plenty of welders, painters, ad assemblers mix with them, the secretive unions behind the wildcat strikes taking a gamble with the Legionary's lot.

"The idea that one carapacian growing fat on his throne from another world can govern, what.Us? We young, bold, proud idealists? What would he know about us? To work our fingers to the bone for our daily bread? To stand by and serve as his cronies and his patsies count their money off of another round of caviar and smoked lamb?"

Agitation from the crowd. The library is still defaced, the institution slow to find the money to fix themselves up after the paramilitary strike. Graffiti and broken windows and what they had hoped weren't bullet casings.

"There is no greater crime than to destroy a nation and suppress a people, who are only trying to preserve that which they were given, to build a happy life from it."

Many is the time he has said these words in this string, in this order. But it stirs the arterial blood hot with a fire not of the stars.

"We stand at the precipice of a new world, with a clean break from the past." He begins to shout, tender vocal cords putting in overtime. "Their hour has come! Their old world of oppression, slavery, and tears will be replaced by the new! A new, bright world of the brotherhood of workers!"

How many quotes has he dropped? How many more will he tear from that scarred skin of the world that one calls history?

He knows the Wanton Quant is moving in the shadows, as she is wont to do. With one hand she moves the Prospitian Royal Army across the Veil, with the other she grabs up investments abandoned by lily-livered Dersite investors. Her peace is a corporate, heartless one, but their aims align in the end.

The roar of the crowd brings him back to that day, the crush of opposing waves as they slaughtered each other in the streets. He trips, mentally, but he cannot falter now. He puts those ghosts aside.

For now, there is a rally to continue. A spark to enflame the light of hope in the next generation.


Saigo Takanaga regards the splotchy horizon with a inquisitorial gaze, willing it to grant him the answers to questions he does not know to ask. It'd been three weeks since Okubo Toshimichi, or Emperor Komei as he went by now, had ascended the throne atop a slew of schemes and stiffs.

Peaches and strawberries came to mind, not borne solely of sunset's colors. Kiyo's son was among those emigrating here in search of fortune; he approached agriculture with a steady, disciplined mind.

"Done for the day?" Kiyo asks.

Takanaga turns around, nodding. "Think so. I'm reconsidering having a parlor at all. If I want guests I'll bring them to the usual haunts."

He had determined to stay here, for the time being. He was learning how to tend a bar, to make and cook noodles, to measure a track gauge. Now he might add building a house to that list. Kido would carry on as he always did, scurrying in the shadows. Satsuma was still technically in the grips of a civil war, bloodless as it may yet be.

A cold clenching in his gut thinks there will be blood. The fallen emperor yet has his loyalists, and the current peace is a frail, flimsy, fragile flake.

But nation-building is not his forte, so. Takanaga walks off to Lawclaw. He and Altria had agreed to grab a bite to eat and apprise each other of the latest developments in each others' lives.


Why the hell do cartographers listen to drunks and mystics? No idea, but anyone incensed by it that live near Sakurajima, more specifically, one of the many who now live in Kagoshima, can wonder that as they live there. The volcanic ash doesn't come this far down. Yes, the fields over yonder are rich and draw in farmers by the hundreds, but why is here falling under that umbrella. Troll lives ten miles out from the Hellespont Sea, no one tells them they live on the coast, do they?

In your name we offered six robins, singular in color and sharp of talon, and while fear and loathing and tribulation gripped you, they too passed.

....there's at least four things wrong with that, but in typical Lawclaw routine, oh well.

In your name we offered two unblemished geese, of evil temperament and bane to small children, and your Hope lit a new path out of the darkness.

Not a day goes by without another hundred moving in through the tower. Rumor is tens of thousands more are on the way. Maybe it's the drunks again. Or the surveyors making shit up again out of boredom. It's not your fault the Incipisphere hasn't evolved to have cell phones yet.

In your name we recited the fifteenth mantra of meditation fifteen times in fifteen days, and you received your provenance come in black glory, sent her to complete the circle.

...what a time.

You are the Knight of Hope, the Cavalier, a hopeless romantic, one who will always want to drink deeply from the well of life, its joys and its sorrows. You accepted who you were, and you are no longer Brisco Hawken, but Altria Vivian.

You open the door to the Red Haunt, expression genuinely calm and jovial.


Upon his seat of power, the Black King rests, empty-eyed skulls littering the steps of his throne. Above him, more skulls are set along pikes that fan out behind his head like an osseous halo, though these skulls still have the skin and the fascia and the muscle. These skulls still have eyes and ears and brains that no longer function, rotting as they are.

The same display is mirrored across each district of the violet moon, across the Veil, and on Prospit. Their crimes are many: wage theft, insider trading, falsified tax returns, undermining regulatory authorities, fraudulent trading, misuse of public funds, insurance fraud, embezzlement, market manipulation, the list goes on.

They had betrayed the King's trust and destroyed any faith the people might have in his governance. Mercy for one's tyrants was cruelty, not clemency, and the Manichet Papers had afforded him a clarity that many spent their entire lives chasing. Crystal enough to see how many thousands had to be put in a cell, or against the wall.

A new affectation, the role of the fell-handed tyrant who wields life and death in the same sword-hand. Fear to force their hands, flush out the decadent, corrupt parasites of the state with the threat of the guillotine. They would either fail and meet their end as another skull to adorn the royal steps, or reach out with olive branches and be thrown in jail.

The damage was nearly intolerable. Derse's bureaucracy was still critical to running the state, bloated and corpulent it had become. The moon would be a madhouse for years to come, with nearly all its experienced leaders rotting, in solitary or in the street.

The King likened it to amputating a gangrenous limb. The rot had to be removed, no matter the cost.

There would be no mercy in his new kingdom. There would be a clean break with the past upon pain of death.

They would sour on him, reverence turned to vitriol as he continued to prune his garden.

And slowly, their thoughts would turn blasphemous, that the Violet Throne must be toppled and new forms of governance found.

He bows his shadowed head as the cardinal finishes stuttering the words and the annulment completes. He snaps his fingers, and the headsman's revolver buries lead in his former wife's cranium. He gives no thoughts to her pleas for forgiveness and renewal.

That was the mistake he made the first time, that he assumed his people would better themselves, without a King to oversee them.

The seeds of rebellion plant themselves in the eyes of his courtiers. The Minister, the Theorist, the Peacekeeper, the Hawkshaw. A pair of cats the Peacekeeper took off the streets, watching with great distress. One of the Reveler's aides that he himself took in. They will go home, furious as a blaze, yet restrained by a pragmatic sensibility that forces them to consider how a world without him will be run, if they put that age-old theory of tyrannicide into practice.

These same, driven minds are sagacious enough to pull it off, too, or learn how to do so. How to move on.

.

Just as planned.


The moths will return to reclaim their homelands, in the end. So the conclave concluded, after discussions possessed of no small bickering. By their reckoning, it will be centuries before they cover the continent as they did before, centuries that are no longer solely their own.
Carapacians from the stars, bringing words of commerce and exchange. They will have another conclave on this, tomorrow, the wise and the passionate among them gathered on the crags. These carapacians are a decadent, strange lot. They may only bring doom, despite their good intentions; it has happened before, and it may yet happen again.


This is what Gimel understands the other moths of Last Light to understand. Personally, he knows Samech wanted to return, to a homeland he never knew, if only to uncover what was lost to the catastrophe. Whatever Samech desires, he'll probably sway the others to his reason.

For now, however, there are more pressing matters. He has an affinity for the Flame that he did not before, but the Flame is not what it once was, and the umbral forces kept at bay with the Flame have disappeared. The nature of the Flame is changing, much like he is, much like mothkind is, much like the world is.

He takes joy in his youth, that he will adapt and bend to the changing game with ease, as the young do.


The day is fading and night will be upon the world soon, as per the custody battle between dawn and dusk.

In your name we offered nothing.

You are as you have always been.

In your name we recited every threnody of the book of the second necrosaint, and you did not become kindling for the consuming pyre upon which the Children of Time and Perdition were burnt.
You are Lara Novikov, magus extraordinare, and as of late, aspiring bassist.

You will learn in time, how to speak circles around anyone else, for music is a language whose morphemes are not so elusive after all.

You are the Seer of Mind, the Magician, and you may be one of the greatest magi humanity has ever produced, perhaps because you are no longer among their ranks. You are an isle unto yourself, immersed deeply in that endless sea of power.

Speaking of which, where the heck is your bass.


For the first time in two decades, Millicent Plunkett and Vincent Novikov reunite. Not ten seconds pass before she mocks him for his newfound youth.

And here they are. Millicent, who is sometimes Marche, and Vincent. The first circle is a line, now, without August, without Avalia, without Alaric. They share a silent moment of reminiscence, then hours that are loud and filled with many a crack, pithy observation, and self-aggrandizing boast all.

The reunion is shockingly mundane despite themselves. Once, they consider demanding a change of music from the venue. Millicent speaks of her child, and Vincent speaks of his. Twice, they almost come to blows over whose child is superior; this argument will never be resolved. They have loved and lost and lamented and listlessly were. Thrice, they share a look that belies the bond they have both fervently denied; Millicent will always scorn Vincent for not being Avalia, Vincent will always compare Millicent to Alaric and Anya, Marche will always consider Vincent as culpable as August for everything that has come to pass, and yet they would always have Sverdlovsk.

She brushes off the last of the cycle as children, he scorns them for being mindless; but they were children too, once. It is easier to condemn their past than to accept it, that their friends are gone, those bonds forged in strife and sorrow listlessly hanging, and the one bond that yet remains has become a painful, festering, oozing reminder of those lost halcyon days.

What was it all for? Certainly not this.

It is unlucky for a child to have to watch their parent reel from a breakdown, their world uncertain and wibbly-wobbly.

Lara Novikov was not a lucky child that night. Not that she ever was.


Greensfield's roads have grown long in the weeks since, as carapacians and consorts alike flock to the Veil by the tens and hundreds and thousands, skeletons of houses and offices and shops like plaque that clings to the arterial wall.

Many are unskilled, and the question of how to handle their growing numbers is a question left for the new patrons of the Veil's Free Territories. A clade of Void players who lost their home. A ghost and her father who gave away their home. Wayward ascendants and their enemies, whose homes have long since gone.

They make no pretensions of power, simply because they do not want it; all the better as these exceptional few bear little skill in administration that merits it. But the heroic streak in them is a ferocious calling that will brook no temperance.

All they ask is that Aaron stop petitioning to rename Greensfield to Blue Prospit Two.

They are not successful.


Silence. Not a sum zero silence. The grass rustles, the bovillion rustle their wings, the clouds roll by overhead. You've never seen a cloud roll like a crashed car down a mountainside, but everyone else seems to get the memo, so.

In your name we offered three peacocks, bright in plumage and many-eyed, and the hierarch and the spymaster failed to ensnare you in their plots, while the demon laid eyes upon you as you slew in a display of your mastery over your aspect.

Silence like the calm before the storm. But not in the air. No, more...

In your name we offered a sow of one year, overfed with grain made into cakes with oil and wine, and you did not become yet another sacrificial skull on the rotting throne of the decadent or the primeval.

Maybe it's just you itching for something exciting to do. But then you have to deal with people and oh my gosh you're a jade why are you out here. You'd think if anything they'd leave you well alone because of your blood, not pester you about it. Damn high-panted highbloods.

In your name we recited the fugue processional because we could, because we must, because the words came to us that you had defied the behaviors of your antecedents and struck out on your own, and we dared not, we could not, we must not refuse your war against the ascendancy.

Your name is Natali Pathor, and you have no need for false names anymore. You live the simple life, where the hoofbeasts and Bovillion play. This may be the life, but it is not your life, no siree. You long once more for the days of action, for the days of adrenaline and adversaries.

You are the Mage of Breath, the Huntress, and you have hunted the greatest of quarries and came out alive. You mastered Breath, tamed the four winds, and may defeat whosoever stands in your way.

Anyway, time to throw on your boots and your bigass hat to go with your bigass horns— hey, about that hat.


"....fucking hell." Tactas swears under his breath.

The Black King had his wife executed in front of the royal court, one of thousands lined up against a wall and shot; purging competent, if corrupt, bureaucrats and officers across the board is only going to deepen Derse's slump, maybe even bottom out.

And Prospit's radicals have only intensified. "They've a taste for blood, the feeding frenzy will be upon us." They're going to destabilize the moon even further in their pursuit of liberty and prosperity.

The Nostalgic Minister puts out his cigar, ash gathering in the little porcelain bowl on the lacquered table, in one of the higher rooms of the Imperial Palace.

"The King is in a... mood." he starts. "He feels decisive, systematic action eyeing the long term is what Derse needs, even at the cost of the short term."

Tactas knows the sentiment; he's willing to sacrifice an entire generation for the sake of the people. More magnanimous than the standard one, at least, being for the people's benefit instead of Her Immortal Constancy's. "You can't slaughter your way to prosperity. Not in the way he wants."

Kido folds his hands. "Might I suggest an economic separation and rebinding?"

The Minister coughs, prompting a "Let me explain." from the consort. He off-handedly waves yes.

"Satsuma's traders to the outside world still use boondollars, but most of the Land uses its own currency. Other Lands are much the same, I understand it. If Prospit were to have its own currency, it and the rest bound to some slow-growing supply like gold, it would give Prospit a chance to restart, independent as it likes."

The Minister goes silent, deep in thought about the myriad issues this would create.

Tactas follows suit, though he speaks next. "Not enough. It needs an independent body to adjudicate, or it's going to be Derse's bankers playing shadowmaster again. An international, independent bank, led by impartial actors."

The migraine returns, beating a tattoo into the Minister's temple. "This is absurd. The number of things that might go wrong. There must be a better way."

The troll shakes his head. "It's not good enough. The Black King's trying to compensate for being absent for the past few decades, and the Prospitian socialists are already blooded." He doesn't mention how this would keep Satsuma free of Derse's grasp in the long run. He suppresses an appreciative whoop at Kido's testicular fortitude, even now, the bold bastard. "He's been micromanaging the executions and the replacements, hasn't he?"

"Yes. You're suggesting this will placate both parties. I think you're underestimating the amount of work this'll take. There can be no mistakes at this juncture; everything needs to work in perfect harmony. And I should mention about half the people I might suggest for this are rotting in a jail cell or in a grave."

Tactas sighs. Pulls out a chair and slouches in it, limbs languidly acquiescing to gravity's call. "Alright. Let's figure out who'll replace them."

The Minister sighs back, pulling out a new cigar.

"Let me make this clear." Tactas says. "People like Altria Vivian damn near killed themselves to give us this chance. We're going to figure this out. I've gotten your measures. There's no way you'll ever sleep easy again if you walk away from this."

A lesson he took from Altria. With these sorts of people, spirits with thick, jaded, battered shells to protect themselves? They want to do the right thing; all they need is a call to action.

Kido folds a letter and ties it to a messenger pigeon. They will need lunch delivered up here. Possibly dinner too. Perhaps even bedrolls.


Martin scrubs at his bathtub with a frenzy. Dirt and grime is anathema to him, after half the Metro was infested by that... thing. The shadows cast by those verminous pests with imposing mandibles and stingers, discolored lights glinting off their glossy, webbed wings. A disgust like soured oatmeal fills his stomach to dwell on such thoughts for long.

A sonorous, crunchy discordance echoes through the earth. The Metro needs to be expanded, for the monkeys coming from... a giant underground city-land in the shape of a man.

But bananas apparently don't grow on trees, so who is he to complain? Besides, Tyler and his mother could use a house to themselves; the community center is not a sanctuary of first choice for anyone.


Sun's going down. Dad doesn't like it when you keep the back lights on to tend to your garden. Says you can do it later. Plants are more durable than that. You can think of some exceptions, but realistically, you're hungry at night anyway, so. Better get back in, wash up, and get ready for grub.

In your name we offered five crows, brilliant in mind and united in polity, and you neither forgot yourself nor had your strength proved insufficient to retain your convictions and deny the way of the world.

The house is empty. Your sister's in the garage, using the space vacated by your dad's car to test out a robot of hers. This one she spliced together from two of those store-brought do it yourself robot kits for the aspiring learner or whatever marketing said works best these days.

In your name we offered a pair of bulls slain in war, of bloodstained horns and gnashing teeth, and you learned to reshape your station, to wear a mantle that you saw fit for you.

As long as she doesn't set the lawn mower on fire, it'll be fine.

In your name we recited the ninety-ninth psalm upon the ten point tree was made, and you remained strong through wrack and ruin that carried to you and everyone else pain as the vanguard's ruination consumes her, and through her the sum of the lost souls of Skaia were infected with a rot that ate away at their decency.

Your name is Aaron Sykes and you are covered in garden dirt. You are the son of Desmond and Caroline Sykes, brother to Emma Sykes, and are sort of an average dude in many respects, despite your nature.

You are the Heir of Void, the Sentinel, with everything you do the definition of what an Heir of Void does, as it is you. You are it. And oblivion in all its emptiness, in all its majesty, is yours.

As is this garden you've set up, with tomatoes, berries, squash, and herbs, which is nice. The herbs aren't wilting from the heat as much, anymore.


Avalia Hawken finishes writing the eighteenth page of her journal. There is still so much more to be said.

She takes up her blade, a sharp, utilitarian extension of herself. Her descendant understood the coupling of royalty and the cut, yet she suspected in a fight, the elder would be victorious. The hand that brings the edge to bear must be pragmatic, not passionate. The expression of royalty is borne of emptiness, and yet...

To be plain, that is no goddamn fucking way to live. And in this respect the younger lives more fruitfully.

The decade of grief is at an end. Her will is her own again, and she will not squander it for a mastery she does not need; imperial cavalreapers her ass, half of these tin can fuckers barely understand which end of the blade to hold.

She closes her journal and sticks the feather where she found it, on the trisected corpse of an imperial skirmisader. She needs to write in such a way that Altria cannot read this before her appointed time.

There are world other than these; Alternia under a different lens, another side of the same spirit. She will write in their script; Altria will find her way to these other worlds one day, then it is but a matter of finding a willing translator.

She also claimed that she would die in the end.

Avalia smirks as she stands up from the tree stump to be on her way, one step through rainbow, grassy soil at a time.

She'll see about that. If she fails, then Altria will be right. But if she succeeds? Then she will journal her greatest gambit before sending it off to find its way into her descendant's hands.

To escape fate's gaol. The very audacity of it sends her into a giggling fit. It is decided.

She must live to see Altria again, show her how easily a Hopeful Child of Skaia might escape their Judgment.


The powder and the sweat makes her skin crawl, as she bikes down the dirt road to that final loop that set the last of her libations on the road to victory.

Her flesh had crawled around her bones. Dread crept down her spine, vertebrae by vertebrae. Shadows fueled by her fears had loomed around every corner.

That it might all fall apart because she had forgotten one player's entry at the end of it all. Instead, this Althea girl had done it, an unknown element in a solved game.

Fuck, she's tired. The centuries in her prison weren't especially active. She hasn't ridden anything this hard in, well. Never mind that.

A jadeite with inconceivably long horns stares her down as she pedals faster. She waves back. No, didn't work, she doesn't trust her.

She reaches the ranch, a rustic little thing that has that inimitable quality of being a home. She gets off her bike and breathes heavily and deeply, lungs screaming in a chorus alongside her legs, knees, rear, and back.

"Hi there!" she says cheerily, voice unable to keep secret the tiredness of a long journey. "Natali Pathor?"

.

"Be seeing you." she tells her. A slip of the tongue, though to be truthful would've given it away.

She gets back on the bike and pedals up, cursing the uphill slope between every two-lungsful of air.

No. Her chest is on fire, if her legs stop moving they may never start, and the seat of the bicycle was not made for the rear end of any troll you've ever met. But she's not fading away.

She continues biking, across the dirt road as storm clouds roll over the horizon, until she's sufficient out of view that she stops the bike, staggers off the road, and collapses under a solitary tree.

Tiny globs of rainwater fall on her face, as she stares into the roiling, gray skies, fingers digging into the cool earth under her, unable to focus enough to do more than appreciate the powdery soil that clumps against the meat of her body and the deluge of water from above.

Time passes as she lays there, until her senses and sensibility return in full.

Soaked through, she stumbles over to the edge of the hill. The ranch house is no longer there; the Mage of Breath has entered the Game.

She looks back, on the country road, now desolate, the shadows deep and the thunder strident. She picks up her bike and continues on her way. She has food enough, for a long while. A tent, if she can find a place untouched by the downpour.

Her sense of Time remains, though her ability to manipulate it, step through it in mimicry of Space, has gone dormant, atrophied from at least seventy sweeps of disuse. She's not sure if she can make her way back to the Medium from here, and she never did before Time ended, did she?

And so she returns back to her own loop: a lonely, regretful troll at the bottom of the hierarchy without much of anything to her name.

August Kelsav rides off, fading into the distance as white lightning splits the sky.


Among the bones and the roses and the offered spirits, the sunset rite concludes and the ending comes forth.

So it goes.
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2020.10.29 01:29 asukaherself Day 26 - Can’t Believe I’ve Made it This Far

It’s been 26 days since I’ve quit. I went from 20-40, sometimes 50-60, grams per day to zero. I had been using for about 3-4 months. Prior to that was about 2 and a half years of cycling through abuse, withdrawals and recovery. Only a handful of times have I made it this far. Usually, I relapse in the first couple of weeks.
I feel much better than I did 2 weeks ago. The 2nd week was the worst. I am eating better, sleeping better and overall have better energy. It’s not quite 100% but I’d say I’m around 75%. That’s way up from the 10-20% I was feeling. It just gets slightly better each day.
Sleeping is markedly better. When I’m tired now, I actually fall asleep and stay asleep. Initially, it was a struggle to fall asleep, and when I was lucky enough to actually fall asleep, I had horrible dreams and was maybe lucky to get an hour or 2. The problem I have now is that I don’t get tired early enough. So I end up going to bed late and only getting 4 hours. I also will “nap” when I get home if I’m exhausted. That can sometimes turn into 4-6 hours of sleep. I wake up feeling great but have totally screwed up my sleeping habits. I think by next week, I will fall back into normal.
My energy levels are great. I only notice they’re affected when I take something to help me sleep. So, if I take a unisom or something like that, it can cause me to be a little groggy in the AM. However, it wears off eventually, but still sucks. But, for the most part I don’t feel terribly exhausted all the time. However, I do feel like it comes in waves. There will be times where I just do not want to get out of bed and then other times where I’m a boundless ball of energy. It feels so good to have all that energy again.
The “dullness” is wearing off. For a while, I felt absolutely nothing. I just felt super dull. Nothing was interesting, funny, sad, happy, etc. This week, I was driving home from work when I started feeling really good again. It actually lasted for a while. I’ve found time goes by so much faster now. Initially, the days would just drag on. Now, they’re flying by again. Tomorrow is already Thursday! I’ve been able to play video games, watch videos and all kinds of entertainment and find enjoyment in it.
There are some minor improvements too. Music sounds better again. When I first quit kratom, I find the first day or 2 music sounds so good again, but after that... it kind of becomes annoying. Mostly because you’re not getting anything from it. Over the past few days, I’ve noticed I’m really getting into it again. It makes me happy! So I’m thrilled I’ve gained that pleasure back as well.
Everything has not been perfect though. My stomach is still gnarly. I will use the bathroom 2-4 times a day. If I eat anything remotely spicy or full of flavor, it agitates my stomach. It’s improving, but still an issue. Based off what I’ve read, this could take a while to improve.
I’ve been a little lazy too. When I get home, I will nap as I previously said or I will get comfortable and spend all night on the computer. I do need to clean dishes and probably some mopping. It’s not horrible, but not ideal. I was going to the gym regularly, but this week I stopped because I was trying to catch up on rest. I’ve caught up, but need to get back in the gym. Most likely I will be back tomorrow or Friday. My strength has exponentially increased. I was SO weak when I started. Now I’m lifting much heavier! I ideally would like to lose all the weight I gained during my addiction, which is quite a lot.
I’ve been a little too reliant on marijuana. It’s been helping me sleep, entertain me, help eat, etc. However, I notice it can affect my energy the next day if I smoke or dab too much. If I spend all night dabbing, then the next day I’m just exhausted. It usually takes lying in bed all morning, getting something to eat, lots of water and a hot shower to get me going. Then, I usually need an energy drink or coffee to really get me back. I have not smoked today, so we will see how it goes.
Before I go, there are some other things I didn’t think about when I quit. The money I’m saving has increased significantly. I downloaded a quit app which generically asks you how much you were spending weekly on your addiction and the date you quit. It shows you how long it’s been and how much money you’ve saved. This month it’s been $400 on kratom alone. However, I’m saving even more than that. I ate out a lot on kratom. I also impulse bought a lot of things. One of my favorite things to do was go on Amazon while high. I’m easily probably saving $1000 a month right now from quitting.
In the back of my mind, I do have worry. I wonder if I will ever feel normal again. I wonder if I will ever feel real good again without drugs. I worry about the long term health impacts of abusing kratom. Is my lover holding up? How about the kidneys? The chest and side pain I was having towards the end is completely gone. But, I still worry.
Anyways, please don’t hesitate to ask questions or anything like that! I love to help!
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2020.10.29 01:21 hey_iku [14m] i work so hard to have good posts yet nobody ever responds :/

so before me long ass intro, i jus wanna say smthn. im goin thru a rlly rough time rn. i lost my best friend 4 or so days ago. and thats sent me into a spiraling depression. i also got ghosted by one of my friends about a week and a half ago. so thats shit. basically, i dont have any friends anymore and its made me more depressed and suicidal than i already was. i dont rlly wanna talk abt it more, but yea. jus thought that might be necessary to say. idk
anyways, my names nick! im 14 but my family and friend tell me that i have a very similar personality and maturity of a well put together adult so thats cool. ig ill describe my look lol. im 6’2”, i have a swimmers build (long limbs, broad shoulders, big appendages, lean muscles). im white, dirty blonde hair, blue/green eyes, freckles. the clothes that i usually wear are mostly black, whites, and grays. normally t shirts (but sometimes long sleeves), always skinny jeans, always a snap back hat, calf high socks. sometimes ill wear a hoodie, if its a zip up, i leave it unzipped. ill also wear a leathejean jacket on occasion. and ill also wear a flannel if i want to change it up a bit. i usually wear a necklace, but im always cautious with it cuz its expensive. and sometimes ill wear a watch, usually my apple watch, but sometimes the ill wear one of my fancy watches if im dressing for somewhere fancy
interests -
sports - im a professional mountain biker. i LOVE it so much. i do it like every fckn day. my main styles are freeride and downhill. but ill dabble in slope style, enduro, and 4x sometimes. you can check my post history for the start to my most recent race. my sponsors are leatt and gopro at the moment. im currently in talks with yt and monster over contracts next year, though
music - i listen to pretty much only hard rock and metal lol. ill listen to pretty much every subgenera of metal. except for stuff like metallica. i dont think that stuff should metal. i see it more as jus normal rock. and for hard rock, i mainly only like newer styles like shinedown. im also a drummer. ill play pretty much anything but my favorite to play is metal core or trap
movies - i rlly like war, horror, comedy, sciemce fiction, action, and sport movies. i dont rlly like dramas, romances, and musicals
tv - ill watch anything from south park and shows like that to spongebob lol. but i dont rlly like realit, drama, or tv shows that should be watched in a series
academics- im two years ahead of where i should be in school. im in honors english, honors bio, honors algebra 2 trig, and video production. ill probably join the track team when the season starts because i enjoy that very much. if i graduate this year with all a’s (which from how its going rn seems very likely), my gpa will be a 4.6 which is good i think. but next year im probably gonna take more advanced classes like honors history and honors lang. and im 9th grade if that matters at all
technology - im really big into computers. ill tear apart and rebuild my computer for fun lol. i currently have an i5 8400 cooles by a kraken z73, a gtx 1050 ti, 16 gigs of 3200 ddr4 ram, an asus tuf z390 plus, a 140mm fan exhaust and 3 120mm fan exhaust in an nzxt h710i. i plan to upgrade to 128 gigs of 4000 ddr4 ram, an rtx 3090 founders edition cooles by a kraken z73 on the kraken g12 bracket, an i9 10900k cooled by a kraken z73, and an nzxt z490 board. i used to be fluent in 3 coding languages, but its been a loooooonnnnngggg time since ive done that. i also like filming, photography, and editing alot (i do all my editing on my macbook, not my pc). and i keep up to date on all sorts of technology things cuz i loveeeeeeee it
games - ive got a switch, ps1, ps3, ps4, psvr, xbox one, pc, 3ds, 3ds xl, snes, game cube, wii, and wii u. i mostly use my pc for games now but every so often ill play the ps1, ps4, switch, and xbox. i never play the ds’, game cube, or wii’s anymore though. as for game genres, ill play pretty much everything except for the reading drama type games like doki doki literature club. and i havent been gaming as much recently cuz life has taken over
politics - i enjoy politics very much. im conservative, so a lot of people hate me and my views. most people assume that im a narcissistic asshole that cant have a conversation when its quite the opposite. i enjoy having civil political talks, whether we agree or not. im usually open minded to hearing other ideas. but i also do extensive research before i come to a conclusion on something political. so i can typically back up my views
weapons - i enjoy weapons a ton. guns, knives, swords, i love them all. i currently own a karambit, butterfly knife, and medieval sword. there’s so many more blades i would want. and when im of legal age, i definitely plan to buy guns as well
cars - im not the smartest car guy. im definitely still learning, but i really enjoy cars. my favorites are trucks (goes hand in hand with mountain biking lol). when im 16, my parents are going to buy me an old 60’s truck and take it to Gotham Garage (a world class custom car shop near us) and get it totally decked out to be a monster. i also like sleek cars like audis. my favorite car styles are old, modern, sleeper, and super cars
military - ive always been interested in the military. my dad’s side grandfather was an officer in the airforce. my mum’s side great grandfather was a colonel in the marines. my mum’s side grandfather was a officer colonel in the marines and also the airforce. and my dad was enlisted in the navy. so ive grown up around the military, which ig naturally gave me an interest in it. this summer, i plan to go to the naval academy for a week of schooling there. and when i graduate high school, i plan to go there for college. after that, i want to join the marines as an officer scout sniper. definitely not an easy task and ive been working my ass off to prepare for it lol
what i would like in a friend-
so this is a long story but id prefer if you were female. i dont rly like talking abt why but if u rly wanna know, ill say in pm’s. id also prefer if you were from australia, north america, or europe. there just the closest timezones. ive found asia and africa to be quite hard with the timezone differences. but that isnt the biggest deal. and 100% no drugs whatsoever. i fckn hate them with all my heart. and jus be chill overall. age and sexuality doesnt matter to me
idrk what else to say so jus hmu :)
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2020.10.29 00:47 Avion1929 [OFFERING] 15x15ft Master Bedroom Reptile Friendly Home $400/m Richlands,NC

Rent includes all utilities. A $300-$400 deposit is needed before move-in (depends on your chosen move-in date). A housekeeper comes in once a week to tidy bathrooms, mop up the kitchen, and vacuum all the carpet. The Master bedroom has a large walk-in closet, a private bathroom, and is unfurnished.
The house is located off of 111; 15 minutes away from Richlands, 20 minutes away from Jacksonville, and about 30 minutes away from Camp Lejeune.
For honesty's sake, the previous tenant left the house with work that needs to be done and they took the washedryer. Renting out the master bedroom will allow me to get a new washedryer and also a few days off a month (since I currently get no days off) in order to do the housework. The bathroom ceiling is peeling slightly (I can show pictures) and the shower rod needs to be replaced. That's about it.
There's no smoking allowed in the house, I'd prefer no overnight guests or estranged family/friend visits in the middle of the night, and drinking is allowed so long as you don't make a mess. I'd prefer no pets other than reptiles, and I'd prefer only 1 person to rent the room. Once I'm done fixing up the house, I intend to get a few chickens, security cameras and the back/front yards will be available for you to use for gardening and such.
I'm a chill 30 y/o who doesn't like going out other than for work and I basically live on my computer for freelance work, crafting, and game streams. I work until late afternoon and go to bed at around 11 PM. The cat I own is high-strung and gets overstimulated easily, which is why I'd prefer no animals other than reptiles.
I will not accept your deposit until you've seen the room in person. No exceptions.
If you're interested or have any questions just shoot me a message.
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2020.10.29 00:46 Terrible_Horse I (19 M) still have really strong feelings for my best friend (19F) who I used to date, can I have some input?

So I'm a sophomore in college. I've liked this girl who lived on my hall last year for a while now. We're best friends and I absolutely love spending time with her. I had a girlfriend back home when I came here last year and she broke up with me when I came home for Christmas. I felt like I was finally free from what was holding me back in my hometown and she was a tad bit controlling and made me feel bad about myself by accusing me of cheating on her (even though I'm pretty sure she cheated on me) because "I was gonna tun out like my dad" and said I wasn't doing enough for the relationship, we were growing apart, etc.
We have so much in common like our tastes in music, favorite movies, sense of humor, hell she even loves college football, granted our teams are rivals. Our friends on our floor always called us the boy-girl versions of each other. We've always been there for each other so much in many different ways. She had a boyfriend at a different school last semester and she knew I liked her because I'd told her, but for the longest time we were just friends. He cheated on her and we got together right after that because she had said she felt something between us too. We dated for a week before they sent us home because of the pandemic. For a couple of months we made it work really well and she even invited me to come up and meet her parents. But so much happened in our lives and she felt like it was better if we weren't in a relationship.
I kept wondering what I could've done better the entire summer and, not proud to admit it, I had a one night stand with a high school friend a couple of weeks after she broke up with me. We kept being friends but were a bit distant. She started dating another guy about a couple of months after she broke up with me. He broke up with her about a week. I still had very strong feelings for her and when I moved back in I went to see her and gave her a note basically saying how I still loved her and I really just wanted to know where I went wrong. She got mad at me for it and we didn't talk for a little over a month, and I found out during that time she showed it to a lot of our friends from the previous year that lived with me.
I contracted the virus and quarantined at my friend's apartment when one day out of nowhere about 3 or 4 weeks ago she apologized for how she'd been and wanted to be friends. After I had finished isolation we started hanging out again like we did before, making random store trips and watching movies and youtube videos at each other's places. She asked if I saw anything toxic in her, which I didn't and I asked her if she could tell me a reason for what happened, which was I was a little overwhelming but she thought I was a great guy, I just as she said "put all my eggs in one basket." We've been hanging out a lot lately and I've forgiven her for being cold towards me because I know she's been through a lot and felt like she unfairly took out the anger on me when she said I didn't deserve it. Out of respect for her I won't say what any of that is. I know girls that are interested in me but I just can't because she's just a once in a lifetime person and I know it feels right.
A couple of weeks ago she stayed in my dorm room on Saturday night because we were both drunk so we couldn't get her to her place across town. We stayed up until like 4 watching videos and laughing at each other's jokes. She wore my clothes because we both got soaked in the rain and she stayed until about 5 the next day sleeping in and hanging out. I just remember watching the Falcons game, sitting in my bed with her cuddled up to my pillow beside me and realizing that's exactly what I want. We've been hanging out almost every day since.
Being with her makes everything feel like it'll be ok and I bring her some sort of comfort and relief when she needs it most. She can read me like a book and we both know each other so well. Hell just a couple of weeks she came with me and my old teammate from highschool to the karaoke bar and when I brought my friend back, I took her to her place on the other campus and we just sat there listening to music and she could tell I had something on my mind and she finally got it out of me that I'd been depressed for the past few months because of home issues and I thought I'd lost my best friend in her for a while. She truly cares about me and I could tell because of what she told me that night from her own experiences.
Here's why I'm so confused. This past weekend we went to a haunted house with the same guy from my high school and her roommate since she loves doing that kind of thing. When we got back her and I started drinking and we hung out at my dorm while he stayed in the other room since my suitemate wasn't there. She tried to walk back to her apartment but of course that's not a good idea since it's all the way across town and she'd have to walk through some pretty bad parts of town at night, which I wasn't going to let her do because it's not safe. I offered her my bed and I'd use another blanket and sleep on the floor. I got her to come back once and we just stayed in there playing music and her making fun of me for my accent and all our inside jokes. But when I went to stop her from walking back the second time she grabbed me and kissed me at the door. She felt really bad about it and kept saying it wasn't fair to do that to me. She said she was either walking back or sleeping on the floor, so I finally agreed to let her stay on the floor but then she climbed up in the bed with me after a few minutes. I had to tell her the next day because apparently she didn't remember anything from the night before. She said she knows I can't look her in the eyes and say I don't still have feelings for her and when I asked her if she could do the same she said she doesn't think she can answer that right now. We've been hanging out a lot regardless. I went to the bar with her the next night and she came over to get food and watch a movie until like 2 in the morning the next night. We haven't really been hanging out much the past couple of days because we've been loaded down with school work but we've still been texting and snapping a lot like always.
I felt like I was dating my best friend when we were dating and I want this to work, I just don't ever want to lose her in any way. She's the most incredible person I've ever met and our bond is one that we both feel is very strong. She cares about me and I care about her too. I know I have to work on myself and since then I have a lot. I want to be that same guy that's goofy and trying to make her laugh while being a ear to listen and someone to hug when she needs it most. I've never felt this close to anybody or had this strong of a feeling towards anyone. It feels so right but I know she has to be happy too and that's what I really want.
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2020.10.29 00:38 theintrepidwanderer 2020 Ocean State Rhode Races Marathon: An Actual, In-Person Live Road Race

Race Information

Goals

Goal Description Completed?
A Sub-3:10 Yes
B Sub-3:15 Yes
C Sub-3:20 Yes
D Set a marathon PR by 20 minutes Yes
E Set a marathon PR by 15 minutes Yes
F Set a marathon PR by 10 minutes Yes
G Negative split Yes
H Top 20 placement Yes
I Set a half marathon PR (old PR: 1:36:13) Yes

Mile Splits (from Strava)

Mile Time
1 7:02
2 7:16
3 7:35
4 7:04
5 7:17
6 7:15
7 7:20
8 7:28
9 7:01
10 7:16
11 6:59
12 7:17
13 7:13
14 7:08
15 7:11
16 7:17
17 7:30
18 7:27
19 7:53
20 7:10
21 6:53
22 6:46
23 7:01
24 7:02
25 7:25
26 6:58
0.2 6:43

Half Marathon Splits

Mile Time Notes
13.1 1:35:22
26.2 1:34:32 new half PR

Training

Well, let me start by getting this out of the way: this year has been weird, unusual, and at times, stressful. Especially with the COVID-19 pandemic. After a spring training cycle that ended with me setting new PRs in the 10 mile and half marathon distances (via solo time trials), I started my marathon training cycle in June, with the hope that the major fall marathons (Chicago and NYC) were going to be held. Of course, they cancelled their events weeks later (and within weeks of each other) because the COVID situation was still left uncontrolled, leaving me without any goal race to aim for. With the uncertainty still lingering in the air, I opted to continue my training regimen, and start looking around for smaller races nearby later. Specifically, races that were small enough where they could get the necessary approvals to be held and were not too high profile where it would attract unnecessary attention.
My training consisted of mostly easy/aerobic running, some speed and hill workouts thrown in, along with the regularly scheduled long runs. But because I was training in the Northeast during the summer, it was brutally hot and humid, and training was miserable at times. Using a modified Pfitz 18/70 plan (basically without the hard workouts that might have overcooked me), I began at 50-55 miles per week, and eventually peaked at 70 miles per week.
Over the late summer, I started using marathon aggregation websites to look around for small races nearby, or within reasonable traveling distance, that were not cancelled at the time and still had space to accommodate additional participants. Some early leads fizzled out as the organizers opted to cancel their races and/or go virtual due to the uncertain COVID situation. Another race I was looking at decided to restrict participants to those who only resided in New England states, per a state order. Eventually, it came down to me seriously considering two races – Ocean State Rhode Races (OSRR) and the Harrisburg Marathon – and began to keep a very close eye on the developments from the organizers of those races. I noticed that the Ocean State Rhode Races organizers had a free waitlist enabled, the race was in late October (coinciding with the TCS NYC Virtual Marathon), and COVID cases wasn’t expected to spike to concerning levels at that time; with that in mind, I put my name into the waitlist.
About four weeks out, OSRR organizers reported that they got state-level approval for their event (a huge development), and they were working on getting town-level approval for all the towns that were along the course. One by one, town-level approvals started coming through, and the event appeared to be on track to get the full green light by the following week (three weeks out). With that promising positive trend, I decided to schedule my final 20 mile long run on that same weekend so that I could start my three week taper when registration opened up the following week. Sure enough, once the final town level approval was obtained the following week, they began to start pulling people from the waitlists. I immediately jumped on registration once I was pulled off the waitlist and signed up without any further delay. What seemed like a distant dream a few months ago became reality; I now had an actual, in-person marathon to focus on. It was time to prepare and bring my game day face to the race.

Pre-Race

Traveled over to Rhode Island via train and car early on Saturday morning, arriving at Narragansett later in the morning. After dropping off my overnight bags at the hotel, I walked around the beach area for a while, then stopped by the bib pickup area at the beach to pick up my bib. After eating lunch and checking into my hotel room, I did an easy shakeout jog along the first few miles of the marathon route to loosen my legs and get a feel of the first few miles of the course. Spent the rest of the afternoon chilling, sparing my legs from walking around too much.
I went to a nearby restaurant in the evening for the customary carb-heavy pre-marathon dinner. After dinner, I went back to my hotel room, where I went and did my usual pre-race preparation and routine. Laid out my singlet, shorts, arm warmers, my new pair of Next%, socks, gels and gloves, and pinned the bib onto my singlet. Took a warm Epsom salt bath to loosen my muscles and calm my nerves. I remembered seeing u/dozaster mentioned in artc that he drank a full serving of Maurten 320 the night before the race and it helped him greatly. I was like heck, this was worth a try; I wasn’t planning to carry a bottle during the race, yet I wanted to make sure I was sufficiently fueled up for at least the first half of the race, even I have to find myself storing it in my body like a bear preparing for hibernation. So I found myself drinking a serving of Maurten 320 while watching the World Series on TV before heading to bed. (Side note: And I found out the morning after the Dodgers choked really hard down the stretch. Like c’mon? Really? But again, that doesn’t surprise me). Got a good 7 hour sleep that night, and felt very well rested that night.
Woke up at 5:30 AM and started to get myself ready for the race. Had a quick breakfast consisting of two granola bars and some water to go along with it. I checked the temperatures for that morning, and while it was cold (temperatures were in the high 40s at the start), I realized this was perfect running temperatures and that I was going to be in perfect place once I was warmed up. Thus, no need for throwaway clothes. Plus, the start line was about half a mile from the hotel itself, and it was an easy 10 minute jog over. Since the race asked us to show up about 10-15 minutes before our scheduled start time, I wasn’t going to be sitting around in the cold for long prior to starting the race. Once I got dressed, I headed over to the hotel lobby where I got myself a bit of coffee to wake myself up and to stay warm for the time being. About 20 minutes before the race started, I took a gel, washed it down with water, then headed out to make the 10 minute jog over to the start line.
Once I reached the start area, I saw that other marathoners were converging on the area at the same time, and I noticed that the announcer was starting to ask participants to line up at the start corral. After a few quick strides in the parking lot, I went over to the starting corral and positioned myself up front. I quickly greeted a few runners near me and we started asking each other what our race goals were. It was immediately clear to me that everyone wanted to respectfully run their own races and not want to go out too fast and spend unnecessary effort jockeying for positions up front at the beginning. I also quickly realized there was a much deeper field than usual that showed up this year; there were quite a few sub-2:40 men, with a good number of sub-2:55 men in the mix as well. This was not surprising to me in the first place; with all the high-profile races were cancelled due to the pandemic, many of these displaced runners needed to find a race satisfy their racing itch, just like me, and it was almost a guarantee that a few of these fast runners were going to show up to any legitimate race that is able to be held in a COVID environment once they hear about it. With the realization that I was facing a very competitive field and that an age group placement was out of reach (unless something catastrophic were to happen), I decided to focus on running my own race, race smart, and focus on my own goal: running a 3:10 marathon.
After the usual pre-race announcements and the singing of the National Anthem, it was time for us to start the race. With the “on your mark, get set….” from the race announcer, we were off and running down the road in no time to kick off the race.

Race

Mile 1 to 7

I started off the first mile a bit too hot, going along with the faster runners up front. I quickly realized this was a bad idea and I certainly did not want to end my race early. So, I consciously backed off and let other faster runners go ahead of me, while I worked on slowing my pace down to my goal pace of 7:15 per mile.
My immediate concern in the beginning was that my HR was spiking to levels that would be unsustainable over the long run. Because of that, I focused on making sure I was being relaxed as much as possible while staying close to goal pace as much as possible in efforts to keep my heart rate down. There were a good number of rolling hills present during the first seven miles, and so I made sure to maintain consistent effort while going up and down the hills. I was in visual contact with a small group of runners – a few males and a few fast females – and so I tried to make sure I didn’t fall too behind from that group. Took some water at mile 4, and decided to hold off taking a gel until the mile 8 aid station, as I felt good nutrition-wise at that time.
Although, I have to say that I enjoyed the views while going through the Bonnet Shores neighborhood, and that was definitely the highlight for me for this portion of the race.
Hit the first 7 miles with 7:02, 7:16, 7:35, 7:04, 7:17, 7:15, and 7:20 mile splits.

Mile 7.1 to 13.1

After going through the Bonnett Shores neighborhood, I continued north on Boston Neck Road. After we passed the half marathon split off point, we started to run past the early bird marathoners whom started an hour earlier than we did, and we continued to encounter groups of these early bird marathoners throughout this stretch. There was a slight uphill climb between miles 9.4 and 10.4, but it did not bother me too much and I was able to navigate it without any issues.
The stretch between miles 10 and the half marathon point was incredibly beautiful. The roads here were lined with trees on both ends, and you could see that there was some fall foliage left on these trees (peak fall foliage occurred a week before). It was quite a beautiful sight to see.
By this time, my heart rate had dropped and stabilized to levels where I could maintain my current pace without completely bonking out later down the stretch. Took a gel with water at the mile 8 aid station; at that point, I burned through a good portion of my glycogen stores and felt this was a good time to start taking some additional nutrition. By the time I approached the halfway point, the lead male runners started coming through in the opposite direction, making their way south to the start/finish area.
Mile 8 through 13 splits were as follows: 7:28, 7:01, 7:16, 6:59, 7:17, 7:13. Hit the halfway point in 1:35:22. So far, so good.

Mile 13.1 to Mile 20

The halfway point between mile 13 and 16 consisted of an out-and-back loop through a residential neighborhood. Again, it was very quiet for the most part, aside from a couple of cheer groups that popped up along the way. Took a quick look at my watch and while the predicted time on the Race Screen app was still fluctuating all over the place, there was one metric that remained constant: the average mile per pace. And it was consistently showing 7:15 mile per pace. This was a good sign that I was on the right track to meet my goal finishing time; I focused on maintaining my current pace with consistent efforts. There was a small group of guys I was running with between mile 8 and 16, but by mile 16 I had completely dropped them as well. Took some water at the aid station after mile 14 and took some additional water plus a gel at the aid station right after mile 16, and girded myself for the uphill climb between mile 17 and 19. By this time, the rest of the marathoners were making their way northward, and I found myself blasting past them in the opposite direction.
Mile 17 and 19 was arguably the toughest part of the course, with rolling hills between miles 17 and 18, and a significant uphill climb of 160 feet between miles 18 and 19. While I navigated miles 17 and 18 without any issues (though at a slightly slower pace), miles 18 and 19 were somewhat difficult. While I slowed my pace by a minute per mile, it was a grind and never-ending and I had to put much more effort into this segment compared to the effort that I had put in running the first 18 miles of the race. My lungs and legs felt like they were burning up, and I wanted this to end.
Once I crested the hill at mile 19, I made a quick porta potty stop at the aid station, followed by a quick sip of water. After a quick breather, I resumed running and was back on my way.
Mile splits between miles 14 and 20 were as follows: 7:08, 7:11, 7:07:, 7:30, 7:27, 7:53, 7:10

Mile 20 to 26

There was this female runner that was I was running with since mile 8; while she was ahead of me most of the time (but within visual sight), I finally caught up to her by around mile 20. Once I passed mile 20, I had a big decision to make; do I stay on my current pace, or do I pick it up and run fast during the last 10K? I quickly checked in with myself to see if I was OK with picking things up a notch, and I realized that I was still in good shape (no fatigue), didn’t show any signs of bonking, and still had enough left in the tank for a fast finish. My watch still showed that I was on 7:15/mi pace, and my dream of a 3:10 finish was very much alive. With that, I decided that I did not want to lose this opportunity; it was go time for me. I picked up the pace, dropped the female runner, and began grinding out the last 10K on my own, at a pace slightly faster than my goal marathon time. I took full advantage of the elevation drops between miles 20 and 22 to throw down mile splits of 6:53 and 6:45, respectively, and put in more of a gap between me and other runners who were right behind me. This put me in no man’s land for at least a mile or so once more.
Shortly before mile 22, I made a right turn and merged onto the same route that the half marathoners were running on; this delighted me because now I was not completely alone and would have company for the last 4 miles of the race. With that, I continued with my fast pace, made sure I was 6 feet apart from the half marathoners, and blazed past them like a hot knife through butter. Some of them even cheered me on as I ran past them. Not going to lie, I felt like a rock star at that time, even though I felt bad for running past them and leaving them in the dust like that. But I had a goal to meet, I was not going to relent, and I had to remain focused. A quick check of my watch around mile 23 indicated that my average mile pace dropped down to 7:14 per mile, and I was on a track to finish in the 3:10 range.
By mile 24, I knew that I almost had this marathon in the bag, and I was on pace to set a massive PR. But, before I could bring it home and celebrate, there was this hill between mile 24 and mile 25 I had to climb. Not as bad as the hill between mile 18 and 19, but it was annoying obstacle between me and the finish. So, I braced myself and grinded it out while doing my best to maintain a pace close to my goal pace of 7:15 per mile. After hitting the mile 25 mark, I knew the finish line was not far away, that I was almost done, and I wanted to finish up strong. Picked up the pace once more, grinded out a small hill that was in the way, and held on for dear life.
As I approached mile 26, I noticed the finish line in the distance, and that was enough motivation for me to further pick up the pace book it to the finish. Checked my watch one more time, and the Race Screen App told me I was on track to finish in 3:10:06. Oh hell no, I thought to myself, I have a good shot at finishing under 3:10 and I am not going to throw away this opportunity. I made a left hand turn and entered the finishing chute to book it all the way to the finish, and got so excited that the announcer had to remind me to pull up my mask on the way in (which I did!). I saw the race clock at about 150 meters to go, and it was ticking away at around 3:09:30, and that is when I knew that a sub-3:10 finish was possible. Ran the final meters while keeping a close eye on the race clock to make sure I wasn’t slowing down while approaching the finish. Crossed the finish line with my arms up when the race clock ticked past 3:09:56. With that, it was over. A stretch marathon goal that I thought was not possible in to reach in the possible became reality.
Mile splits between mile 21 and 26 were as follows: 6:53, 6:46, 7:01, 7:02, 7:25, 6:58. Final 0.2 was ran in 6:43. Ran the second half in 1:34:32, or 50 seconds faster than my first half.
Final official finishing time: 3:09:54. Good for 17th overall. And a 21 minute marathon PR.

Post-Race

After crossing the finish line, I stopped my watch and did a quick check on my body to make sure that I wasn’t experiencing any physical difficulties (I was still functional and alert). Grabbed my post-finish snacks and drinks on my way out of the finishing chute, and checked my official finishing time on my phone; that was when I learned that I finished under 3:10, which was the best possible outcome for me. Hung around for a bit to watch other runners finish their own races, and chatted with other runners that were in the finish area. After about an hour, I slowly walked back to my hotel for a much-needed hot shower and a change of clothes, checked out of my hotel room, and headed over to a nearby restaurant for a celebratory lunch. Stopped by a brewery next to the train station that afternoon for a quick celebratory drink before taking the Northeast Regional back to NYC.
All in all, this race went as perfectly as you could imagine. Because of the rolling hills that were prevalent in the course, I was concerned that I was going to fry myself for going too hard on the hills, especially during the second half of the race when bad decisions during the first half come back to bite many people’s asses. Thus, I decided to start conservatively and made sure I was holding myself together during the first half without overcooking myself, and make a break for it for the second half if I had enough left in the tank. This proved to be an excellent decision on my part. Second, I was expecting to be in no man’s land for most parts of the race because of my expected finishing time; indeed, I was in no man’s land for some stretches of the race, but surprisingly I had company near or ahead of me for most parts of the race; I made sure I was keeping those runners within line of sight with consistent effort, not pacing myself faster than I was comfortable with at the time. Third, taking the Maurten 320 the night before helped me a lot in terms of fueling as I was able to tap into it during the first half of the race, when I was getting my rhythm established. Finally, the weather was perfect for running; the temperatures at the start were in the high 40s and did not creep up beyond the low 50s, making conditions ideal for racing. The only obstacle I faced was that there were 11 mph winds from the north, which made the first half a bit challenging. I opted to hold back during the first half so to not fight against the wind and crank it up during second half where the wind was basically a non-factor. Overall, I committed to a reasonable finishing time as my primary goal, stuck to and ran my own race throughout, and made sure I was well fueled and well rested beforehand. These were the ingredients that propelled me to a successful day on the course and helped me nab a huge marathon PR in the process.

Marathon PR Progression

Special Thanks

Before I end this, I wanted to give a special thanks to everyone who have made this year possible, even in these unusual and scary times.
Made with a new race report generator created by herumph.
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2020.10.29 00:35 Ok-Caterpillar-2102 I feel like I can't do anything to help in my long distance relationship

I (23F) have been in a long distance relationship with my partner (21 NB) for 3 1/2 years now. Throughout our relationship we have met up about 2-3 times a year. I don't really mind url dating because I'm a very online person and my partner is the same way. We have no issues with messaging/calling each other and we do so frequently. However, because of Covid we have not been able to visit each other since January. This has really taken a toll on our relationship as well as my partner's mental health.
When we started dating my partner didn't really show any signs of depression but it has gotten worse over the years. Around February of this year they started taking anti-depressants. They were working pretty well for a bit and they told me that they weren't having any intrusive/depressive thoughts and they were also talking to a therapist. However, during this time my partner started experiencing gender dysphoria as well. My partner was AMAB and they wanted to start transitioning. Unfortunately, the gender clinic in their country rejected their application because they have depression. This did not help at all and combining this with not being able to see me has worsened my partner's mental health. I know they would be much happier if they could transition but their country's gender clinic has a backwards policy on transitioning.
I am a cisgender woman and I know I will never understand what it's like to not be able to transition but I try to be as supportive as possible. However, it's very hard to be in relationship with someone who has depression when you live apart from each other. I also feel very helpless because I can't do anything to help them transition. This has been stressing me out for past couple of months and I think this is also negatively affecting our relationship,. They are often in a bad mood and very pessimistic about things. I try to be positive and do fun things like watch movies or play video games but it only feels like a distraction to the real issue.
*EDIT* I forgot to mention they aren't in therapy right now because they wanted a therapist who specializes in trans issues. However, most of the LGBT friendly therapists are under private practice so they would have to pay more money to speak with them.
TL;DR My LDR partner has been experiencing depression and gender dysphoria and we haven't been able to see each other because of Covid. I feel powerless to make them feel better and I feel this is taking a toll on our relationship.
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2020.10.29 00:27 Terrible_Horse Should I keep trying with this girl?

So I'm a sophomore in college. I've liked this girl who lived on my hall last year for a while now. We're best friends and I absolutely love spending time with her. I had a girlfriend back home when I came here last year and she broke up with me when I came home for Christmas. I felt like I was finally free from what was holding me back in my hometown and she was a tad bit controlling and made me feel bad about myself by accusing me of cheating on her (even though I'm pretty sure she cheated on me) because "I was gonna tun out like my dad" and said I wasn't doing enough for the relationship, we were growing apart, etc.
We have so much in common like our tastes in music, favorite movies, sense of humor, hell she even loves college football, granted our teams are rivals. Our friends on our floor always called us the boy-girl versions of each other. We've always been there for each other so much in many different ways. She had a boyfriend at a different school last semester and she knew I liked her because I'd told her, but for the longest time we were just friends. He cheated on her and we got together right after that because she had said she felt something between us too. We dated for a week before they sent us home because of the pandemic. For a couple of months we made it work really well and she even invited me to come up and meet her parents. But so much happened in our lives and she felt like it was better if we weren't in a relationship.
I kept wondering what I could've done better the entire summer and, not proud to admit it, I had a one night stand with a high school friend a couple of weeks after she broke up with me. We kept being friends but were a bit distant. She started dating another guy about a couple of months after she broke up with me. He broke up with her about a week. I still had very strong feelings for her and when I moved back in I went to see her and gave her a note basically saying how I still loved her and I really just wanted to know where I went wrong. She got mad at me for it and we didn't talk for a little over a month, and I found out during that time she showed it to a lot of our friends from the previous year that lived with me.
I contracted the virus and quarantined at my friend's apartment when one day out of nowhere about 3 or 4 weeks ago she apologized for how she'd been and wanted to be friends. After I had finished isolation we started hanging out again like we did before, making random store trips and watching movies and youtube videos at each other's places. She asked if I saw anything toxic in her, which I didn't and I asked her if she could tell me a reason for what happened, which was I was a little overwhelming but she thought I was a great guy, I just as she said "put all my eggs in one basket." We've been hanging out a lot lately and I've forgiven her for being cold towards me because I know she's been through a lot and felt like she unfairly took out the anger on me when she said I didn't deserve it. Out of respect for her I won't say what any of that is. I know girls that are interested in me but I just can't because she's just a once in a lifetime person and I know it feels right.
A couple of weeks ago she stayed in my dorm room on Saturday night because we were both drunk so we couldn't get her to her place across town. We stayed up until like 4 watching videos and laughing at each other's jokes. She wore my clothes because we both got soaked in the rain and she stayed until about 5 the next day sleeping in and hanging out. I just remember watching the Falcons game, sitting in my bed with her cuddled up to my pillow beside me and realizing that's exactly what I want. We've been hanging out almost every day since.
Being with her makes everything feel like it'll be ok and I bring her some sort of comfort and relief when she needs it most. She can read me like a book and we both know each other so well. Hell just last night she came with me and my old teammate from highschool to the karaoke bar and when I brought my friend back, I took her to her place on the other campus and we just sat there listening to music and she could tell I had something on my mind and she finally got it out of me that I'd been depressed for the past few months because of home issues and I thought I'd lost my best friend in her for a while. She truly cares about me and I could tell because of what she told me that night from her own experiences.
Here's why I'm so confused. This past weekend we went to a haunted house with the same guy from my high school and her roommate since she loves doing that kind of thing. When we got back her and I started drinking and we hung out at my dorm while he stayed in the other room since my suitemate wasn't there. She tried to walk back to her apartment but of course that's not a good idea since it's all the way across town and she'd have to walk through some pretty bad parts of town at night, which I wasn't going to let her do because it's not safe. I offered her my bed and I'd use another blanket and sleep on the floor. I got her to come back once and we just stayed in there playing music and her making fun of me for my accent and all our inside jokes. But when I went to stop her from walking back the second time she grabbed me and kissed me at the door. She felt really bad about it and kept saying it wasn't fair to do that to me. She said she was either walking back or sleeping on the floor, so I finally agreed to let her stay on the floor but then she climbed up in the bed with me after a few minutes. I had to tell her the next day because apparently she didn't remember anything from the night before. She said she knows I can't look her in the eyes and say I don't still have feelings for her and when I asked her if she could do the same she said she doesn't think she can answer that right now. We've been hanging out a lot regardless. I went to the bar with her the next night and she came over to get food and watch a movie with me cuddled up on my bed until like 2 in the morning the next night. We haven't really been hanging out much the past couple of days because we've been loaded down with school work but we've still been texting and snapping a lot like always.
I felt like I was dating my best friend when we were dating and I want this to work, I just don't ever want to lose her in any way. She's the most incredible person I've ever met and our bond is one that we both feel is very strong. She cares about me and I care about her too. I know I have to work on myself and since then I have a lot. I want to be that same guy that's goofy and trying to make her laugh while being a ear to listen and someone to hug when she needs it most. I've never felt this close to anybody or had this strong of a feeling towards anyone. It feels so right but I know she has to be happy too and that's what I really want.
tldr: Basically I still have feelings for somebody I used to date and I'm really close with. I don't know where to go from here and it's a super long story
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2020.10.29 00:16 catniagara Advice Girls wish guys didn't give eachother [dating] [tinder]

I've had a lot of cringe convos on tinder and other dating sites, which goes without saying because we probably all have, but I've also seen guys giving other guys advice about what to say in dating sites/apps, and it's always the same stuff I hear girls chatting about... in sentences that start with "omg this guy was so cringey/creepy/boring/weird"
I want to help. So, here's my two cents, dos and do nots of online and all dating.
Do not
Compliment our DNA. Nice eyes, nice body, nice... I dunno, cheekbones. Instead, compliment something we did. Not the fact that our parents did eachother. Instead, just call my parents, have a nice chat with them about their beautiful daughter, and when you've got congratulating them out of your system, just get back on tinder and compliment something I did. That's some great nail art. I love your fashion sense. That's a great piece of artwork on your wall. Cute dog! Connect with me as a person. Let me know you want ME, not a blow up doll.
Invite us to creepy places. Dude...no we are not going hiking together. I'm busy. I'd rather not visit that abandoned warehouse. I'm good. Oh yeah you live in a house boat on a closed down old Beach? Oh shoot I think I have plans with my parents every day forever. Rule to keep in mind: if it has ever been the set of a horror movie, do not invite someone there on a first date. Exception: if your girl is weird like me and likes doing gravestone rubbing, you may invite her to a public graveyard. But like, ask if she rubs gravestones first.
Invite yourself to her house. From now on "how about I keep you company" "need someone to come over and cuddle?" "I'll come over and rub your back" are banned from your vocabulary. Exception: if you are in a role play server with her and you never want the relationship to go offline. If she is online specifically to role play with dudes.
Say you know something is stupid and say it anyway. "You probably hear this a lot but you're beautiful" Don't say that unless it's obvious she never hears it. In that case it comes off as a huge compliment because you not only think she's beautiful you think there's loads of competition. Basically only say this if you're lying. "I probably shouldn't say this but" if you know you shouldn't, don't.
Hit us with spoilers. Maybe this is just me but if I like a show/movie/book and you've seen/read the whole series, do NOT tell me what is coming. I will kill you.
Make fun of us "You're not as pretty as you think you are" "why are you wearing that stupid hat?" "oh look at miss popular"... Do not.
Belittle or talk down to us. Some guys talk to you like you're a kid. It sucks a lot
Self defeat. Tell yourself a girl wouldn't date a guy like you. It's 2020. If you were this massively hot guy, you'd know it because you'd need raid to keep the girls off. If you are approaching a girl, you're probably not "that" guy. But very few girls want to date "that" guy. We don't want to constantly defend our relationship. We don't want other girls to see our guy as competition. And a lot of women are attracted to different types of guy. Some girls like soft squishy guys. Some girls won't date a guy who is hotter than us because we need the spotlight. Don't assume you're unwanted. Especially not because another guy makes you feel that way.
Story break: I once dated a guy who literally only started talking to me because he thought I was laughing at him with my friends in the corner (he was wrong; we were talking about dicks in Disney movies. He constantly listed his flaws to me. It turned out his best friend was kinda toxic. Dude constantly put him down, and when he stood up for himself saying "at least I have a hot girlfriend" his friend started picking out my flaws. My boyfriend believed him. He even believed that he only thought u was attractive because, to quote the friend, "ugly people think other ugly people are attractive"
Meanwhile his friend was the less attractive one. And of course the minute my BF broke up with me the first thing the friend did was try to date me to throw it in his face. Have a spine. Don't let people lie to you like that. Don't let anyone convince you that your girl isn't perfect.
I hate dont's. They make me feel like everything I do is wrong and there's no pleasing the person. I hated teachers who always me to don't but never told me what to do. If you've gotten this far in this long @$$ post, here are some useful strategies for picking up the ladies.
Do it in person where we're less likely to ignore or swipe you.
Compliment something we like about ourselves. Look for clues to our personalities. Have you read the book she has in her hands? Talk about it. She's wearing a shirt of your favorite band ? That's an in.
Ask yourself: what kind of girl is into guys like you? Target accordingly. If you're Matthew Tuck and you're hitting on Taylor Swift, I mean OK she's beautiful... but are you really going to be happy? If you're a football player is the captain of the debate team really your girl?
Be sexy. Girls have a sex drive too. Study the things we find sexy, like bts and study their looks/behavior. Different girls are into different stuff. If you're that big bear of a dude, your girl is probably on a wrestling pinterest board.
Join your Fandom. Somewhere in this world is a place where dudes look like you. A famous place. If you're a bald dude who likes guns, your girl is probably on a Walking Dead fan server. Even if you don't like the fandom, the people in it probably like you. I don't like rap music very much, but guys in that fandom love me. Play to your strengths.
Know your worth. Create a love resume in your head. Who are you? What do you bring to the table? Use a few main points to create an elevator pitch... you know, like the two sentence bios in playboy. Or the intro on a game show "Austin is a four time rodeo champion who loves grilling steaks, building sheds, and wrestling broncos. Voted most likely to die in cowboy boots, he can't hold a tune but he can hold you in his arms forever" "Kyle is an aspiring artist and animator who loves anime and Manga. When he's not sketching Naruto characters in the park, hes hanging out with his cat, Senpai." "Dave is an avid gamer whose first love is Warcraft. He is intensely loyal and has a great job. You can call him any time because he's a night owl and a great listener" etc
Know her worth. Don't second guess yourself or your girl. If you love her, don't let anyone smack talk her. Usually, people who smack talk her are just trying to break you up so they can have a shot. Exception: if your girl actually is a bish on wheels. Unless that's your type. It takes all kinds to make a world.
Let her find out personal stuff in person. If you have some large physical asset don't send a photo. In person she'll know. If you have some fetish, don't try to "get it out of the way" by telling her in the first conversation.
Waste time. I've met guys, single for 8 or 10 years, who called any conversation with a girl that didn't lead to sex a "waste of time". I feel like they did, in fact, have 3 or 4 months to "waste" getting to know a girl.
Know when she's not that into you. If she has a boyfriend. If she dates other guys and complains to you about them. If you're "just friends" but she has a hundred single friends and won't introduce you to them... it's probably time to climb a new tree.
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